la taghdob

i wonder what is it with the library's online database...
its been weeks plus months since i've logged in and tried to look for journal articles for my research paper...

BUT
everytime i tried to open one, it said i have to subscribe, to buy, to do this to do that...
is it the library, or am i just plain stupid??
Im getting sick of this...
i need someone to come with me and show me how to actually get the articles...Pleaaaasssee....!

This research thingy is making me lagged with the other assignments...
moreover,
this is the first time Im doing a research paper...
thus,
i have to use the statistics i learnt before..
i thought i could depend on my groupmates for this...
but NO!
they're of no help...
i flunked my stats for goodness sake!
and i havent even taken CRM...

so,
i have ZERO idea on how to go about doing this research paper...
i desperately want to score in this paper.....:(

about my grpmates,
this semester, again im reminded of how i actually hated group assignments..
there are four of us..
one has NO class on Mon and Wed
the other is the best friend who is married-making it hard to find suitable time for meetings
and then there's this bro who doesnt have HP!!
hence making it EVEN harder to contact him...
we told him of our meetings in class...
he didnt come..
we gave him not one but TWO phone numbers for him to call, but he didnt!

aaargh!!
what ticks me more is that, IM the group leader, but people are just not that interested to listen to me....
am i such a bad leader? am i too soft? too lenient? too kind-hearted?

sometimes it is good to lead tyrannically...
so ppl have no choice, i guess...

they expect good grades but dont work hard enough..
if its individual work, its fine..
but its MY marks too okey!!
GRRR!!!

i MUST get good grade this semester...
i must must must!

btw,
back to the journal articles..
i must get 15 journal articles on spiral of silence!
how?
uwaa...
any kind soul care to help?

P/s: La taghdob, qala La taghdob..