what are friend's for

Reporting from Bedok Library..

Reached home at about 10pm last night..

Going to and from KL by bus at this period of time is not quite a good option..
Ever since the bus accident tragedy that killed 20+ people,
The JPJ is having -i think so- Malaysian-wide bus inspection...
especially on the bus driver...

and last night was not an exception...
the long journey was hell had it not been for my company..:)
Thank God...

But, alas..
Im safe and sound...

hmm...
Im having this nagging feeling in me...
about the issue of friendship..

I told a friend that i just cant be bothered to contact them..
:(

ok,
I know it sounded rude and crude and crap and all that..

i was even surprised at myself for saying that...
I did not know where that came from..
It's soo not like me to say things like that..

I could have said i've been busy lately or my phone's lost
or just any other bullshit so that i wont hurt people...

But out of nowhere i uttered those terrible words...:(

or maybe,
that's the truth that's been kept deep down inside me...?
hmm...

see,
life taught me a lot of lessons...
i really mean a LOT..

especially about people...

Im sure many of you have heard that
'whatever people do or think
is because of their experiences or perceptions on life itself...'

right?

i guess that's what makes me who i am today...

I do not like to be forced to tell what i dont want to tell,
I know when people becomes closer to each other, and they call themselves FRIENDS,
they feel the need to know EVERY single things that happens in their 'friends' life...

you may deny,
but that's what i experience...

people talk about others...
friends talk about friends to other friends....
stories changed becomes distorted,
and that destroys FRIENDSHIP..

and that is another experience of mine...

when people becomes closer they tend to want to be involved in their friend's life...

My perceptions says that,
friends does not neccessarily means we have to be involved to each other all the time..
friends try to understand what their friends wanted for their own life..
friends defend their friend instead of talking behind them to other friends..
friends give space to their friends..


Gee...
at timer i wonder why am i being a secretive person,
its because of my experiences, i guess...

ponder, my friend...

im out..

p/s: takut nak berkawan

Rest Relax and unwind?

Weekend was fine..

Weekend was one great, unwinding moment for me...

It's been sometime since i've got the time to really relax as if i own the ticks to time..

Thanx dear for being so sweet and understanding...:)

Such care and love that i appreciate from the core of my heart..

:)

Anyways..

I've got Muslim Press midterm tomorrow and i'm still on page three on the text..

How slow is that...

Im thinking of holidays that's around the corner...

I wonder if i should extend my hols and risk losing two marks for WNN midterm

or

advance my hols instead..

hmmm...

Since there'll be the BBF on wednesday night before merdeka at Marina,

might as well i come back early and not prolong my hols....

ok!

mind's set...

I'll just advance my hols...yay!

hihihi..

Wonder what's BBF like......

P/S: To plan is not just planning, but to execute and to work towards executing it...

Public Relations is my game..;)

Now, at this point of time,
I am missing him terribly...:'(

The moment i reached Larkin last Sunday,
I feel desperately in need to be back home into his arms..:(

I just couldnt wait to be with you this weekend dear...

On the other hand,
I've been pretty busy with the PR exhibition...
a three-day event; the grand opening ceremony was earlier today...

I was the MC for the event...
trust me,
i've been MC-ing for a gazillion times,
this morning's event was by far the most challenging one for me....

For IIUM-ians,
I'm sure you're familiar with any MCs saying

"Announcing the arrival of........."

right?

I've always thought that it was easy peasy....

BUT.....

i realised that, to just say the word 'announcing' requires talent..;)

seriously...

Last night we had a full-dressed rehearsal of the event..
so all of us had to actually perform our tasks just as if it is the real thing..

time checked=8.00 p.m

and so the 'acting' rector, HOD and other VIPs arrived...

I pun apa lagi...

"announcing the arrival of ........."

somehow it doesnt sound right to me...

after the rehearsal,
Mdm commented on a lot of things that needed to be corrected...

and me, especially,
had to go through soooooooooooooooooo many rounds of rehearsing the MC scripts..

Just to get it all right and perfect....

time checked= 11.30 pm

i've already rehearsed for 'i-dont-know-and-cant-count-anymore' times..
i was thirsty and had no energy left....
I still couldnt get it right...

by 12am,
i left the rehearsal, rested and was up and ready in front of the audi by 7 am...

debarannya?
mak ai! takle angkatz beb!

i was shivering...
i was practising my script again and again at the back stage...

Mdm told me to do some mouth exercises...
aha....
so you can imagine me doing all the 'ooohs' and 'aaahs' with my mouth...
hehehe...

exactly on the dot,
( i was impressed..ni bukan janji melayu tau)
we started the opening ceremony...

ceh...
dengan segala semangat yang ada dalam diri,

"ANNOUNCING the arrival of........................."

cheyy badak!
I finally got it right.......:))

quick, congratulate me....;)

terime kaseh...sama-sama kaseh...

kikikiki...

Soon,
i began to fill comfortable and the event went smoothly....:)
even though there were some glitches...

but then again,
to err is human...

and to constantly improve
is our task...:)

Thanks to all the committees for their support..
special thanx to kaed....;)

and oh yes,
before i forgot....
CONGRATULATIONS to liyana (fellow singaporean)
and your group mates,
for winning the PR program proposal competition...
tumpang bangga nih...hihi...



otey...

i've got to prepare for the closing ceremony tomorrow morning..
and for the quiz and presentation tomorrow afternoon...

yikes!

tata!

p/s: pics will be up when i get them from the committees, i dont know when (cant promise)...hihi....

42 years old....

Hey ho!

Reporting from HS...

It's a beautiful day..

filled with love and blessing from Him Almighty...

First and foremost...

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE...!!!

42 years old now...

I believe Singaporeans no matter where they are, is wearing red and white to celebrate this day...

:)

Im thrilled...

cant wait to sing the national anthem later tonight...

before i go...

dengar2 gambar Assiiumers celebrating National day is up at NDP webbie..

im gonna check it out...

tata!

I woke up feeling the patriotism vibe in me...

i felt like smiling all the way..

hehe...;)

main kawen kawen...erk...masak-masak lah..

halo!
i dont intent to blog much..
just want to say CONGRATS to my buddy..

Aishah Spec!!!!!

cheyyy...cheyyyy...;)

congrats utk apa....??
for me to digest sumore, and for you to find out...;)

bee-sying

I wish i could update as daily as possible...

But,

thank God,

i've been busy for the past few days...

I was desperate for assignments

coz i've been doing nothing but idle since school reopened 5 weeks ago..

(it's been 5 weeks of school!! can you believe it?? only 9 more weeks to go...)

:)

Gee..i sounded pathetic when i said i was desperate for assignments...

hehe...

earlier today,

i was utterly happy when Mdm.Baiduri gave us an assignment...

we were to choose either one of the three topics that she gave...

and.............................

i chose the one on TNMCs and cultural trespass and national sovereignty...

I really wanted to learn more on TNMCs....

and oh yes,

i've been sitting at this PC for about 2 hours or so just getting infos and references for this particular assignment...:)

anyway, it's due 6 weeks from now..ahakz...

semangatz kaaan...........;)

and i've got this presentation for LE4500...

titled:

If i could solve any problem in the world, i would......

aha...

anybody wants to suggest anything? ;)

and i've got two article reviews to be submitted soon..

for those who know me well enough,

im sure you'll be surprise to see me so upbeat about assignments...

hehehehe...;)

almaklumlah......*cheeky smile*

Btw,

two very important events is coming up...

one, the 3-day PR Exhibition, which i'll be emceeing...(i loike!)

next, the graduating students dinner which will be held at either Restoran Puteri or a Golf Country Club...

I went with kaed, zura and azreen (and her cute lil daughter)

surveying the place and its price offer....

i nk sidetrack sket..

Azreen was telling her daughter to stay with her granny(e nenek worked there),

while we go and discuss the dinner with the country club management..

but the lil girl refused and kept running around..

maklumlah budak2...

and guess what the nenek pesan??

"ok, takmu jahat eh..."

pahhaaam tak?

takmu JAHAT..

kahkahkah...

people often say 'takmu nakal eh...'

and the way she said that,

seriously,

it was the joke of the day for us....

ahakz!

The progress is so far so good...

and i really hope this dinner will give me a memory i'll cherish for the rest of my life...

really look forward to it....:)

ok,

i've got to go and continue with my assignments...:))

tak paham kan??

kikiki....

double..no triple trouble...

Im having trouble getting to sleep at night,

two of my roomie's friends have been squatting in her compartment ever since day one..

even though it is an offence to have people squatting in your compartment,

I do not mind...

BUT,

these three girls just cant seem to stop talking and laughing,

even when its past 10 PM...

They talked as if they want to let the whole room know what they're talking about...

Now,

its not that i am complaining unneccessarily...

i understand if it is once in a while,

you know, we're excited about things and we want to tell the whole world about it...

but if its EVERY night,

(no no no, its EVERYTIME they're in the room)

PLUS,

BANGING the door each time they went in and out of the room,

i CANNOT tolerate that......

So now what exactly is my problem, you ask me....??

the problem is,

that I dont know if i should be complaining at the office for the squatting offence

or should i just confront them and ask them nicely to keep it down....

:(

the problem is,

that i dont have the GUTS to face them.....

(i cant even bring myself to say a simple "SSHhhhhhhh")

and that i dont have the heart to complain at the office...

see,

they're final semester students,

if i complain at the office,

i know they would have to pay the fine, which might amount to approximately RM100....

and if i were to face them, i know it would feel awkward after that

knowing that i will be bumping into them every now and then....

:(

it might not seem BIG to you,

but it IS to me....

HOW???

Geez,

and i call myself a communication student,

when i cant even handle a simple problem.....

Boo hoo hoo!

:'(

here i am,
in HS, waiting 4 maghrib..(now its 5.45pm)
to break my fast...
Hehe...saje nk blog...kn my hp ada wireless..;) k, gonna c'nue my
readings... dear! Miss u! :(

Slept not quiet like a princess

I must say, this is the slowest week since school re-opened..

With still no class on Monday,
a plain tuesday,
(with the exception of the KLCC trip ;))
and again i decided not to go out to class today..for fear of no class..

and tomorrow,
i only look forward to go home...
gee..really..
all i had to do this week, apart from my WNN assignments,
was to sleep!

but of course,
not quite like a princess..
unfortunately, because of the noisy roomie...
bluek! :p

Oh yes,
I've got a presentation for WNN tomorrow..
and i simply cant wait..
even though i've not finished working the report just yet...

The best part was the KLCC trip i mentioned..
Initial plan was to break our fast at Chillis..
But
when i saw its vague halal status, i decided not to...

Kaed and me walked around the whole KLCC,
just "jalan-jalan cari makan"
(walk-walk looking for food..hihi..)
before we finally settled on Kelantan's Delight..
i give them a 3 and a half out of 5....
:)

by the end of the day,
i've bought two new books from Kinokuniya....
:))

at least those can keep me company...
currently,
i'm almost finishing the first book..

alamak!
how eh?
hehehe...

;)

gtg finish up on my assignments..
tata!

i love you bibu...

Hey all!
Im back here, again in campus..
and again there was no class today...
lucky i decided not to go to class in the first place..
hehe...

Hows weekend?
partly ok, partly terrible..
the row at home made me all moody the whole Sunday..
Im sorry dear, for being such a nuisance..
I knew you tried to make my day,
I thank you for that..
makes me love you even more..:)
mmuach!
;)

apart from that,
it's BIBU!!!

Gosh!
she's just soo chubby and sooo cute and pretty...
takle angkatz..
i just enjoyed being with her...

thanks dear for getting Bibu....:)
partly because i like her..:)

Dear, quickly get her new baju..
nnt luka2 lak badan dia...;)

ok..now that weekend is over..
its time to get back to reality people...
assignments....!
bummer...!

yay!
cant wait for Prof Fazal's class tomorrow..:))

k k,
i've got to go read news..
tata!

Justice mana??

Damn it!
I've just read the news..
A guy raped a 5 year-old girl,
and he's only been sentenced to 3 years imprisonment and 6 times caning??

Is this justice..??

The girl is so young...
she's got a future.....
this incident will cause her to be traumatised...
cilaka punya orang!!

hish!
Mrepek ah...
what's to happen to people in this world.....:(

Bi-Bu..i loike...

How's the first two weeks of sch?

Fine.
Nothing interesting just yet...
except for the fact that i cant seem to have peaceful sleep almost every night...:(

reasons?
1- roomies having nightmares almost every night..
2- roomies having squatters and they chat aaaallll night long with their lights ON...

They're having nightmares and IM suffering from sleep deprivation...GOSH!
They chit chat like nobody's business and for God's sake!
pls laaa.. i CANT sleep with even the tiniest dimmest light tau!!

uwaa....

i found heaven in my OWN room back home last weekend...
i slept like there's no tomorrow...

gee..i wonder if i can survive the whole semester like this..
*sobs*

apart from that,
everything else is alright...

i always look forward to Prof. Fazal's classes...
i LOVE the way he delivers his lectures...
he's very animated...:)

LE4500 and WNN is also fun...
i've become the 'Miss becok' all of the sudden this semester..(Note: in class ONLY :p)

apparently my arabic lecturer still have not gotten back from his 'kampung'..
so, im still on holiday mood every monday and wednesday...

The highlight of this week will be this weekend...
Dear, Im excited!!

my BIBU's arrival...
OUR Bibu's arrival....:)

i've never been this excited about something like this.....

dear,
rasa cam nak balik skrg jgk!! :)
hopefully, Bibu doesnt arrive before i come home..
wait for me k dear..
nurul nk ikot g fetch Bibu..k?k?k? :)


oklah...gtg..
there's assignments to be done...
tata!

Beary beary muaaach!!

OMG!!
I found my most favourite shop's webbie...:))

i've long dreamt of making my own teddy bear..
i know there are several outlets in Singapore..
they used to have one at causeway point...
now i think they have it at vivo and suntec...:)

hmm..
i was told that i was spouting nonsense and was ignored
when i asked someone to get it for me.......:(
i guess the request was too much..:(

the teddies are a bit costly, plus the clothes and accessories..
haiyyah...
but i really want them....:(

i'll start saving up my school pocket money from today onwards..
i must get one personalised teddy just to make myself happy...:)

eee....best nyer!! :))

http://www.buildabear.com.sg

Boo hoo hoo..

I've attempted..

but,
I failed, again......

Boo to Nurulkhasanah...:'(

*Sigh*

school and everything else

The time has come,
I'll be going back to sch tomorrow morning...
I've been away for quite sometime
i think i've forgotten how it feels like to go to class..
hihi...

But before that,
i've to attend Kelvin's wedding celebration tonight..
Geez,
i've never been to a chinese wedding celebration..
I do not know what to wear..hihi..penting eeeh...

I have absolutely no idea whether its going to be formal or informal....
Im a teeny weeny bit nervous..
tak paham kan apa yg nervous sgt..ahakz...
but dear n me decided to wear white..
so,
we'll see lah eh...

back to sch,
i'll be taking the morning bus from Sg to KL...
Ish! lama tuu tak g KL.....

my class for tomorrow is at 2.30 to four PM only..
pahaammm tak...
mmg relax lah nmpk nyer..
i'll have plenty of time to go to the HS academic affairs office to settle somethings..

and oh yes,
i've to go out to do some errands..
tp bila ek...
hmmm..

oh gosh!
i dont even remember where i put my DG prepaid card..
alamak!

nvrmnd,
gtg iron my baju first...
tata!

hols ended

its already friday morning...
At this wee hour im waiting for him to text me..
So i thought i'd moblog..;)

gosh! Sch's reopening..its my FINAL semester..! its kinda exciting
plus scary..but im eager to start e sem n looking forward to all As
for this sem..amin...e sem will end sometime in november...tk
sabarnyee...:) gtg, ngntukz! Tata! Nite!

i loike!

whoa!
This is cool....
Im blogging thru my phone....
how cool is that??
Hokay, gtg, i'll update later....

trying out

test test.....ehem... Just trying out moblogging..;)

--
mfifo

Make way! make way!

An entry dedicated to a birthday girl..:)

The girl who:
is a confidante,
is the person who 'Cops' a seat in class for me,
always have instinct on what colour i would be wearing to class each day,
is my buddy for craps,
is a person who laughs at everything i say or so,
a person who worries over things for me,
is my study mate,
most importantly ..
is a FRIEND.

Im glad our path crossed..
:)

Happy Birthday Kaed!!! :)

Why-5

Hola!

I've been bitten by the Happy bug...:)
hehz...

guess what!?

I've bought a new HP....
Traded my N70 to the N80 internet edition...
Internet edition means,
Its got WIFI bebeh! ;)

Best part,
my phone is the same with mr.Rainbow..
sepasang gitu...;)
i loike!
:)

Sigh..
It's a wonderful night..:))

searching for the right word

My latest craze..

Its my faithful buddy,
keeping me company; to kill time when i feel bored or just want to get things off my mind for a while..

It's amazing how
a word puzzle can become addictive..
Once i picked the pen, i couldnt stop...

really!

The best part,
it improves your vocabulary...
erk..
very the teacher teacher eh..

ok,
gtg...tata!

blek..

Hmmph!

tga boring..

Tanak tgk transformers..:(
uhuk..

blek!

Sun-sets the moment

Finally!

I've waited sooooo long to come again to this particular place...
A place where i think is quite romantic i shall say..;)

The one place where you can watch the sun sets beautifully....
Subhanallah....:)
Breathtaking moment for me....
sigh...:)


I managed to capture the picturesque view
before the sun disappeared...

Nice, isnt it?

Had i brought my SLR with me,
i could snap none stop......:))

Thank you dear,
for the wonderful time...

okies..
gtg dream abt the place...
;)

reasons

Hey!
I cant help but think that my new layout is very sweet and simple...
hihihi...

anyways,
you might have noticed that there's no more tagboard and archives..

Reason being:
1) I noticed that some people have nothing better to do than give destructive comments.
2) I do not mind advice but to do it in a cowardly manner is BAD.
3) People do not knows nuts about things that's happening, but still decided to provoke others.
4) people who attack others on personal basis are low-esteemed people.
5) I happened to read up my archives of three years ago, and thought that its depressing.
6) Too many memories which i do not want to remember.
7) I want to start new episodes in my life.

So,
anybody wants to comment or give CONSTRUCTIVE advice,
(dont be a coward; tell me who you are)
do so by emailing me..

gladuation lor

This new skin says it all..

Its four months away....

:))

torn between two

Im torn between two...
Im four months plus towards graduating...

Work vs Study

If you ask me,
I want to pursue for a master's degree..

this is something that did not cross my mind when i was in school..
even when i was in my first year in Uni...

But now,
Im very much eager to continue studying...

However,
money is what concerns me most for now...

the fees for a Masters' degree in the field of my choice at NTU
is around SGD9000..
Im not sure if its per academic year or not..the nine-triple 0's digit scared me enough not to continue looking....

OMG!

An then there's NIE..
the prospect is equally tempting...

i would prefer NTU to NIE though..

I guess i just have to work..
or else,
who's going to pay for my loan...

Hmm..
Work or Study?

i tried..

Shit happens..
and i always tell myself,
Im to be blamed...

Heart's bleeding..
But a smile is still forcibly being plastered on....

Gee..
i ought to be awarded at the Oscars for
Best Actress
instead of Halle Berry.....

sigh.

kalau dah jodoh.....

feeling so serene tonite..
after days of missing My Rainbow,
i finally met him earlier today..

ilang kejap rindu i, u...;)

aniweis,
it was only a quick meeting coz tomorrow's e day..
im excited!
will be spending e whole day together...
(also with some friends, later on in the evening)

:)

btw,
just want to share something with all of you..
a few days back, i ACTUALLY realised im 23 years old!!
tak pahaaam kaann...
hihihi....

i die-die thought that im 22...
i was writing down my profile when i wrote 22 on the age box...
gosh!

twenty three years old............
another 2 years time and i'll be 25...

25 tau....!?!
25 is like mid 20s..
where you are actually a VERY eligible bachelorette....

i remembered during my sch days where i planned to get married at the age of 25...
ahakz!
mentel eh...budak masih skolah pun pk bila nk kawen....
biasalah~~ adolescent lah katakan...
kikikiki...

But now,
its totally a different issue...
Not only do i think of when to get married,
i get MAJOR goosebumps when most of my friends is getting or already gotten married...

ahakz...
it's exciting plus scary at the same time...

question is....
when will it be my time? ;)

will it be at the age i planned in sch, which is 25? (hope so :))
or will it be much much later in life, say, 30 or 50?(oops..erk..)
or will i never get the chance to experience it at all? (OMG!)

ouch!
tricky babe..;)

truth is......
we'll just wait and see......;)

gtg have an early night....
cant wait to meet you tomorrow morning honey...:)

Aaaaa AAAAAA ChoooOooOoOOooo!!!

been sneezing like mad cows since an hour ago.....:(
(erk..cows sneez meh?)

niwei, the fever is back...this will go on for abt a few hours and then the temperature will be back to normal again...

gosh, dont know when its going to stop....

what's happening

Im OFFICIALLY back again..
been on hiatus for a very verrry looong time...

i do not know what happened...
i guess i've been too busy to update...
plus my laptop went beserk lately...
thus, being an extra hindrance for this blogging passion of mine...
;)

hmm...
i almost forgot how to blog...
gee...that's scary...

nvrmnd,
since im officially back, and hoping that the laptop wont go gaga again for the time being..
until then, i will be diligently posting news here, ait? ;)

anyways,
life's been pretty good,
the love is still in the air...

i'm falling for him again and again every now and then...
my heart still skip a few beats everytime i see him or hears his voice...

Thank you dearest rainbow
for ur time and effort all the time that im here in singapore...

i love you and forever will, insyaAllah...

im sorry for what happened last night..
i was being such a jerk, i guess...
:(

and today i woke up at 3pm...

WHAT??

oh yes...
coz i couldnt sleep the whole night...

i was up the whole night crying in my sleep...
i kept having 'the vision' in my sleep

which,
caused me to wake up every 15 mins and found myself crying like a baby..
:(

in the end-
to stop the nonsensical mind from 'the vision'-
i decided to watch TV and ate rice with ayam masak merah..
(at 5a.m. in the morning!!)

sigh

abt almost 6 i began to doze off,
only to be having
'the vision' AGAIN...
and tears started to stream...

only when my eyes were as big as a golf ball (from all the crying),
which was at 7 plus, did i managed to fall asleep....

i wont elaborate...

gtg,
mom's calling...

i'll update later...
tata..

action pack

Given the amount of "ching-ching" i can make in this job,
i can just forgo everything and work like nobody's business..

But,
knowing me, i wouldnt want to sacrifice my loved ones, my life,
just for a job thats worth a billion "ching-ching"...


I know i wouldnt want to be doing this for the rest of my life...

Some people might think im crazy to be thinking like this..

but NO...

i know what i want in life...
i really do...

I believe in the saying that goes:
"Talk is cheap; everybody can talk"

thus,
i will only prove through my actions....

p/s: my heart feels heavy to let you go far away...but if this is your opportunity, i pray you achieve success.....

PROMO-tion

hey ho!

i've been promoted....
from
client representative trainee..
to
client representative team leader...

when i first started looking for a job,
i did not dream of anything big...

a simple admin job would be good enough for part time..

however,
i bumped into this company..
and i got the job as client representative..

in my mind,
this is only a three-month-temporary-school-holiday-job...
nothing fancy...

suddenly,
after two weeks...
i made approximately 600-700dolars!

just last friday,
the team went out for dinner at eatz19..

i thought it was just a team night..
it turned out to be a team night CUM celebration for my promotion...

Its not that im not thankful...
in fact, i am full of gratitude...:)

But, (haiz, manusia...there's always a but)
Im suddenly skeptical of my capability...

will i be able to carry this responsibility well?
do i have the leadership qualitites?
will i be able to train my trainees to be like me?
will i be a good example for my trainees?

:(

gee...
i dont know...

well...
maybe its because this is something new to me...
novelty always bring uncertainties...

wish me luck ya!

gtg...

make money

eeugh!
my blog is terribly stagnant....:(

i've been busy...
my work kept me away from blogging..

yup,
you hear me right..
im working...

working with a advertising marketing company...
with "have fun and make money" motto...
hehehe...

well, i really make money in this job..
but the bigger the money, the more hectic the job is..
i work from 9 am to 6.30pm from mon-sat..
and i do not leave the office until its almost seven...
reach home e'day around 9 ++ or even later if i have meetings and yada yada...

so that explains why i've not been diligently blogging...

currently,
im a client representative trainee...
and might be promoted to client rep trainer soon...

Everyday, ater the morning meeting,
i'll go out to offices to meet bosses or managers from other companies
to clinch deal for my clients...

thats why im a client representative...

the reason how i get to blog today is because i took a day off..
i've got blisters on both my feet..
my worse blister experience! :(

nvm..

btw,
results came out yesterday...
thanx mary for checking it for me..

i've got better gpa this time around..
but still,
this is a motivation for me to score all As for my final sem...

i know i can...:)
Amin...

gtg..
tata!

Arians out

The Aries gals bdae updates!! :))
(okay, i noe this is soo basi..tp heck care...nk share gak..:p)

as planned,
Mary and me met at Yishun..


headed to cineleisure to watch 'Namesake' (adapted from a novel by JhumpaLahiri)

great movie...love it...:)
(despite some parts yang.....erk...)
for those who intent to watch it,
its NC-16, k?
kikiki...

so thats bdae girl no.1

and this is bdae girl no.2

this is mine to her..

this hers to me! (my fav!)

this is US!

whatever it is, it is never too late to wish us Arians a happy bdae..
coz the whole of April is OUR month..;)

the visit

i've told that a penangite friend of mine came to Singapore for the weekend, ait?
well, Wani also came...
so we had two of 'em visiting...

i went out with 'em on Sat..
was soooo glad to meet Farah and seeing her finally IN Singapore....

ahakz!

i really hoped she had fun...
:)

despite being a Singaporean myself,
i still felt like a tourist..
so when Farah n Wani went "ooooh-ing" and "aaah-ing" at everything they saw,
i joined them...

kehkehkeh....

still a lot to see and explore, you know...

i managed to capture some beautiful moments...;)

lets see....

aha..
the one in white is Farah...we were waiting for the rest to come and eat with us...

at the popular all-kinds-of-you-name-it-photo-machine...
hehehe....

Farah and Wani, loving the phone booth...

the court..

Fullerton at night..

clark quay...

after a good walk almost all day long, i reached home and slept like a log..hehz...

Singapore may be small...but to walk around it,whoa, is really something...

now where's my Yokoyoko...;)

sighing

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzz..........




I just felt the need to sigh..



time and again...........why?

Justice No No

"there is no Justice in this world, this is the world we live in"


and i mean justice in EVERY possible way..

hmm...

bdae dateS

wonderful date i shall say...:)

i didnt know swensen have laksa until yesterday..(ok, i know im so kuno rite? :p)

i think the laksa was superb..

plus the ice-creams!
yummyyy~~~~ :)

hehz..

comel rite? dis one here is called "b'dae firehouse ice cream"

and as if dats not enough, we ordered one more desert..
choc malt frost..

mmg membesarkan perut lah kirakan...;)

thanx dear for the wonderful time..:)

luv ya! muachs! :)












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bdae celeb with my 'lesb' partner, Mary..kehkehkeh..(seram kaaan...;p) on the 9th...
updates comin up...:)

mary! cant wait to watch namesake!
hehehe...
plus, THE cake..yum yum..;)

meanwhile, my penangite fren, farah is comin to Singapore..
akhirnyeeelah..;)

welcome my fren..
hehe...
enjoy ur visit here...:)

happy 23rd bdae

ola!

im home!!!

at last..yes,
i reached homeland at abut 11.30 pm, on the fourth of April 2007..
he fetched me to fulfill my wish, that is to be with him exactly when the clock strikes midnight..

:)

made me feel terribly happy and touched...:)
thanx dear..you're the best...:)

anyways,
exams over, and my holiday for three months ++ has begun..
gosh! :)

well, a few days before my exam ended,
dearest friend of mine,
Miss aeda fitreah managed to dig into my naiveness...(with her "kaed" thinking)
:p

for two days in a row,
she and two other friends surprised me with a mini bdae celebration..
and im touched...

there's a lot of interesting pics..
i dont think i possess enough diligence at this point of time to post all..

nevertheless, here's some of it..
the rest can be viewed at my fotopages:

http://nkhasanah.fotopages.com

meanwhile, enjoy:

and earlier today, had lunch with spec..windu sey...

and then, went for the last paper and voila!

HOME!!

for those who wished me a happy bdae, thank you dear friends..! :)
happy holidays to you ppl...

p/s: cant wait for the dinner date tonight...hihihi...;)

April fool

Finally!

i've overcome my 'worst' fear...

STATISTICS!

;)

(i almost thought the exam would be cancelled..hehe..April fool lah katakan *wink*)

the exam was this morning...
Alhamdulillah..
i know i understood the questions and were able to answer....

however,
the last question pissed me off totally...GrRrRrrRR!

i calculated for the umpteenth times and still could not get the correct answer...!!?!

geramz btollah!

but anyway,
i did the other steps accordingly...
i know i have a B+ in my hands...but still, im crossing my fingers for an A- minus....

plsssss.....Amin....

so,
that means i have only 2 more papers to go...
tomorrow = marketing
and on the 4th = revelation

i still have 3 chapters to read for marketing,
and i cant believe im sitting here in the Cyber Cafe surfing away....~~~
;)

well,
a teeny weeny bit of play wont harm anyone ait? ;)

p/s: its April already!! gosh! its MY month....my beloved month...:)

everything i thought i cud do

4 down,
3 more papers to go..

its on the 1st, 2nd and 4th April..
and then,
HOME!!

for three months ++..

yes!!

but,
the boring part is, i still have not found a job, yet...

been emailing resumes here and there..
no reply...

i mean,
im only looking for a temporary job..

is it really this hard..?

i wonder how much harder it will be if im looking for a permanent job....

im looking out for administrative, HR, receptionist, customer service, photography studios and last resort teaching....

anyways,
science of hadith was a-okay...:)

Alhamdulilah..

i was quite happy with my answers...

i hope and really hope i'll get good grade for this particular paper....
amin....

now, i've got to overcome my worst fear of all..
STATISTICS!

ceh, takdeeelah sgt...;)

haiz..

and oh!
mummy and daddy will be coming here this weekend...

so,
i might be staying at the hotel with them..

dapatlah mandi air panas..
yay!


p/s: counting the days when i'll be home; reaching Singapore at exactly midnight 5th April 2007...sigh...

openings

btw,
im looking for a part time job
from April to sometime in the first week of July..

reason being,
i'm not taking third sem...

anyone know of any openings?

forget everything

peeps..

forget what i said in my previous entry..
:(

i dont want to think anymore...

p/s: mata asek nk mengalir airmata je..cocok kang baru tau...hish!

unstoppable tears

My heart is crying

cant go on living like this

hey all!

im down at the lowest point in my life, i think..
i dont feel good..
i dont feel cheery anymore...
i always worry...

even when the day that i always look forward to (5 April) is drawing near,
i dont feel like it...
i dont see any point in being happy...

right now,
i just need to be assured...
im scared...:'(

my head cant stop spinning....:(

i cant sleep for days already...
i find it hard to imagine what will happen in future....
:'(

i need a shoulder to cry on....
but,
i dont know how to express what im feeling right now...
no one will understand....

i've cried till i think i have very little to shed....:'(

oh God!
i NEED to be assured....

what will happen of me??

what????

:'((((

i cant think anymore....

sobs. :'(


im out. :'(

dream that's haunting

I had a bad dream...:(
due the finals around the corner,
i've been having sleepless nights..

and then, last night,
i dreamt that i cant answer for my statistic paper...:(
and i cried and cried right there and then in the exam hall...
and the people and my lecturer around me looked cynical...
and since i cant answer, i failed...:'(

SERAMNYEEEE~~~

i pray that it wont happen on the real paper....:(
amin.....


haizz....

anyway,
i went to my couz's chalet yesterday @ aloha loyang, Pasir Ris..
i forgot, it was my niece and nephew's bdae party....
Happy b'dae pretty girl, Nur Aliya and Muhd Nur Hakim....!!



































and as usual,
if me and dina (my couz) meet up,
kita chill lah...
:)
while the others were busy preparing this and that in the kitchen,
we went upstairs to the bedroom, lepakz~~
kikiki...

















take picture is a must lah kan....;)

and then, we got bored, and went to the kids zone...

see!








































ahakz!


and later in the evening,
i met dear...
:))

after a few hours,
went straight home, was tired, and slept(with e bad dream)...

will be meeting him again today..yay! :))

great around them

Its great to back home again! :)
happy to be with him again..:)

okay,
its been so long since i last updated with pictures..
pardon me...
my N70 was 'hospitalised'
but its better now...
yay!

so now can put up pix...:)

last Thurs was an unexpected outing with Kaed..
that girl eh,
really influenced me tau..;p

but it was all worth while...
my hands and fingers were all 'itchy' to caress my baby(read: my SLR)
so we went out to take pictures at Bukit Bintang and KLCC..

That's kaed and me..




















some of my actions...
i didnt realise she took that picture of me,
trying really hard to capture KLCC at its nicest possible angle..
kikiki...



































we were starving by the time we reached KLCC,
so we went to the signatures to fill our grumpy belly..

thats my phad Thai...
whatever it is, it does not satisfy my picky taste buds..






































then,
we had Ice creams!! :)
haiyya..
it was heavenly, i tell you...;)

Hepi giller dapat ice cream..ahakz!
















before we went back to campus,
i sidetracked to famous amos to buy him something..
hope u liked it sayang...:)




















Thanx kaed for the great time..:)
i own you one...

yesterday, i was out the whole day taking pictures, again...
well, its for my assignment...
and also visited my aunt and granny...

i was all over the place trying to control this kiddo here,
she's my cousin, Shahira Begum...
she super hyper and one happy baby tau! :)
















When the sun was at its perfect horizon,
i went to Pasir Ris park to capture more beautiful moments..






































and guess what,
i decided to cycle,
yes, alone and around the whole park!

Refreshing i tell ya...:)
but sorilah, no pictures...
sorang2 and tga feeling,
so tak terlintas nak take my pictures...;p

eh, thats all lah...
gtg,
byk keje rumah la pullak....

tata!

4 flat kapper!

I can pretty much say "phew!!"
why?
coz i've FINALLY finish my eap research paper..
well, not totally..
but 95%....:)

i thought i was never going to be able to finish it...
i felt a GREAT sense of freedom!
its like im walking on air! :)

so,
im down with two more presentations and 1 assignment...
oh yah,
not forgetting my final assesment for my photography skill,
which im going to do this weekend in Singapore...

dear,
nak ikut tk? ;)
but ur working kan? kan? kan? ;p
hehe...

its wednesday,
i simply anticipate the weekend...
i cant wait to smell the 'Singapore air'..
as if there's a difference btw m'sia and spore's air...:p
ahakz!

btw,
i found out that there's merit for those who are active in campus' activities...
as in, there's a transcript for it!

wah!
ini mcm i can get 4 flat lah for my CCA....;)

p/s: i wonder if u're reading this, if u are, i miss u terribly....:(

please end it all soon..

Terrible week.
cried myself to sleep last night.

despite the retail therapy and a good movie that i watched with Mary yesterday,
i was still having this nagging feeling in me..
it's like something in me, is saying,
"weekday starts tomorrow...you will have to face with all those scary things again.."

it makes me dread weekdays all the more..

i just want to go home.
Home is the best remedy of all.

anyway,
i mentioned movie, right?

yah, watched Music&lyrics at KLCC..
all i can say is, the movie is WORTH my money..:)

its damn cute (read: good) i tell ya....
go watch it..

gtg,
got to finish eap research paper...(drag!)

i've got dip comm's second midterm tomorrow...

P/S: met Dr. Mahzan just now, and he told i passed my 1st midterm! Alhamdulillah...:)

letting it all out

Give way everybody......!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

RRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG

GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

GGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just HAVE to let it out....

Pardon me.

:((

longest weekend of my life

Everything is NOT going well for me...
first, my thumdrv gave me a headache..
and now, the aftermath is much more terrible...
I had to start all over again looking for materials for my assignments and presentations, which i had it all done and saved in the PREVIOUS thubdrive...:'(

third, the stupid PCs here just wont cooperate with me..
they cant detect USB lah, hang lah, whatever crap lah dey!!

Gosh!
this is one of the longest weekend in my life!
please end soon,
i cant stand all these trouble...
PLUS
some people are beginning to irritate me to the max....

Lawak biar berpada-pada lah kawan...GrrRRrR...

Sigh*

im sooo depressed...
probably its one of the PMS situation...
where everything seems to be wrong...
:(

on the other hand,
my photography class will be going for a trip to Institut Baitulmal KL tomorrow...
hope this passion of mine will cheer me up...

P/S: i hate busy weekends.....i wanna go home...:'(

why must leave now??

At the time where i have TONS to finish,
with datelines to catch-up with,

my thumbdrive is my 'life'...

but the darn thumbdrive just have to go 'stoink'!

urgh!

all my documents are in there....! :'(

WHY?????

i tried to get it formatted,
but the the technician said its totally a gone case...:(

thus,
and i had to fork out RM50 for a new thumbdrive, which i bought just now...

my dad would kill me if he knew this....


p/s: now i have to re-do my assgmnts...:'( and look for materials AGAIN...:'(

jam packed lah oi!

I've got it all predicted..
i knew i was gonna be busy this week..
including my weekend..
Had to sacrifice this weekend, so after that i can go home as usual every weekend before the final examination begins..

If not, Haram.....
hehe...;)

anyway,
here's a list of what i'll be up to for the rest of the week...

Wednesday: classes, tuition, research paper(first argument)..
Thursday: classes, stats third assgmnt, eap research paper(second argument), hadith discussion...
Friday: classes, out to OTK with kaed(have to develop my films), photography class, eap research paper(1st draft)
Saturday: business conference at JW Marriot hotel, sleepover at Farah's to finish diplomatic comm's assmnt..
Sunday: prepare materials for revelation-hadith-eap and marketing's presentation, read up for dip comm's 2nd midterm...

see,
told ya its gonna be jam packed..

and the next week i'll be doing my most favourite part of schooling,
which is PRESENTATIONS!
YAY!
:)

with all these work piling up and the finals around the corner,
I wish i could be treated to a nice SPA treatment....(i wish!)

haiyyah..
nvrmnd...
just 3 weeks and everything will be over....

wish me luck yah! ;)
tata!

third month together

I am amazed at how time really flies..
The semester is coming to an end in around a month plus time...
which means,
research papers, assgmnts and whatnot have to be submitted soon...

Final exam's drawing near..
Gosh!
starting this coming week,
i'll be much more busy, schedule will be more packed than ever..
i might not be able to come back home as often for the weekends to come...
(more missing to do..sobs..)

i cant wait for this semester to end..
sigh..

the past week have been a lot of fun..
you never fail to make me smile dear..
May Allah bless us..
May Allah bless our plans..

Coming to our third month together now...
Alhamdulillah...
Thank you dear...
love ya lots!

p/s: what the eyes see, the ears hear, the mind believes...how true is that....geez...

Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak bermakna

Home for the CNY hols..
till then, i'll be staying home,
sleeping, watching tv
and
spending time wif him..:)

I'd like to share something that crept into my mind in the middle of last night..

"Tanpa keberanian mimpi tak bermakna"

I dream of 'the' future almost everyday,
feeling blissed as if everything i desired in life will be in my hands,
However,
life is not always a fairytale...
there are hindrances and craps that'll always try to make us give up..

should i give up?
NO!
i WONT...

coz,
'tanpa keberanian mimpi tak bermakna'

i'll be brave...
face all these with my utmost perseverance...
God help me..Insya Allah...


meanwhile,
i kept having frequent headaches these few weeks..
is it stress?
too much worrying?
sometimes i feel like banging my head against the wall, HARD.


p/s: actifast anybody?

feeling sickly

Down with fever AGAIN...
:(

this time its quite bad...
i cant swallow anything...
not even my own saliva!
let alone any other solid foods..

Gosh!
what is wrong with me...
the bad throat is affecting my ears..
and my neck feels heavy...

how i wish its Friday already...
i wanna go home...

i want to go to the doc..(i bet i could get MC)
but,
i cant tolerate walking all the way to the clinic..
not when im in this condition..
i have no energy...
:(

p/s: couldnt concentrate in class earlier today....i think im gonna cry...:'(

all settled

Finally!
i registered all 5 subjects for my FINAL semester..
Alhamdulillah...

Its been a roller coaster ride since 7.45 am this morning...
i've been on my feet from economics to the bank, back to economics and to the bank again, next to the finance dept, and then back to economics AGAIN..
and now im back at HS..

thank God!

my feet and back are aching already~~

but i've got a lot more walking to do..
i might be going to Puduraya later today..

but on second thoughts!
malasnyeeer~~~

see how lah...

Cant wait for the CNY hols!
dear wait for me k? ;)
hihihi...

p/s: Thank Allah for everything..for every single wonderful thing that's happened to me...Its been a miracle! :)

financing mixed up

Darn the new finance system..

great!
now i cant register for my final semester's subject...
so unfair..

igt duit turun dr langit ker...
uwaaa...!

:'(

feeling 'off'

My day was not all bright and sunny...
started with a bad tummy cramp...
ate some meddy and despite the terrible terrible pain,
i had to revise for my last midterm for this semester...
:(

well,
the paper was Alhamdulillah ok...
i dont wish to talk abt it...

It was a very quiet day,
my phone was on silent mode the whole day...
Coz i know it wont ring,
might as well silent it so i wont hope for it to ring...
get it?
erk...takpelah..hihi...

Geez...
i cant believe that im down in my mood today...
i feel sooo 'off' lah..
why ah?
haiyyah......

i guess i'd better go and sleep to rid my my mind off things...

toodles!

romantics and all

Weekend was grrrreeaatt!
despite the PMS monster bugging me..

yup,
after two months of NO pms,
the sensitivity level was back and a tad too high...

But,
i didnt let it went overboard...
thanks dear,
you always know how to make my day...:)
love ya!

weekend was spent with quality...:)
we had a quiet-under-the-sinaran lampu minyak tanah-romantic dinner
hihihi...
which i thought was cute and lovely..:)



















we ate these!
although its instant noodles and BIG gulp,
i was very happy and contented....:)

next time can do it again k dear? ;)

in the meantime,
im busy with school...
i just cant seem to get my mind off my workload...

nevermind,
its for a good cause and a good grade PLUS a good dinner if i pass with flying colours..
rite dear? ;)


gtg back home again this weekend,
an 'ol friend of mine is getting married...
but kinda feel 'segan' lah to go there...
hehe
hmm..
cant wait to meet you shikin!
you're gonna look absolutely gorgeous lah...:)

btw,
to my sis-in-law,
gambar2 kawen you da siap...
boleh tahan lawa gaklah...sbb i yg amek kan....;p


p/s: the senggugut is TERRIBLE!!!! :'(

thats all

now,
at this particular point of time,

I feel like CRYING myself a river.

ok,
that's all.

bye for now.

hikmah Nya

ola!
back to school..

sunday night was always dreaded..
to make it worst,
last Sunday,
since nobody bought the tix and booked the seat for me,
i had to board the second bus with ONLY 4 other IIU mates...

i was worried the bus wont go to IIU..
and the others did not know the direction for the driver to follow...

when the bus came,
i boarded it reluctantly..
and to my surprise,
its a five star bus!
and i only paid RM28 for it!!
:)

there's TV at each seat with a game controller.....:)
how cool is that...

the seat?
mmg baring abess lah....
there were so many buttons on the seat...
and its super comfortable...

even when we had to go to pudu first,
we reached IIU exactly the same time as the other bus..
haha...

plus,
the driver was very friendly....;)

haiz..
hikmah disebalik segalanya...hmm..

p/s: assignment to be submitted by 12 today, but cant access the net...how??

PHD modern

Im hurt by some people...
hurt with a capital 'H'..

im going to thank that person for this,
because from this, i learnt what friendship really means..

it means you can pretend to be nice in front of your friend
and
backstab her behind her back..

it means you can suddenly show you care
when actually
you've done something to 'kill' her..

it means you can act excited to be meeting her
when actually
you're having guilty-conscience!




whatever i write on my blog is mine...
which i share with people...
but STILL it's mine....

when i dont wish to tell every single little detail of my life,
means
i DONT want to tell...

why force me?
and in the end provoke me?
and come up with tell tales as if i am the most naive person in the whole wide web (read:world)

this incident makes me realise,
sometimes its better not to have friends...
its better not to have close friends...

dont blame me for feeling like this....
blame those who caused this...

the norm is,
when we become closer to a person,
we tend to take advantage of him/her...
we never consider their feelings...
we forgot how to appreciate them...
we forgot how to respect them...

Jasa yang lalu tak pernah dikenang,
malah sanggup pula 'membunuh' sahabat sendiri...
terima kasih 'sahabat'...:(

p/s: PHD yg ditayang-tayang kini adalah Penyakit Hasad Dengki...