Dear Hubby

Dear,
I Love YOU.
Do you know that?
I Love you for everything little things you do for me,
I Love you for being there with me,
I Love you for being YOU.

On your special day,
no gifts or birthday cakes can amount to the love that you've showered me with.
YOU deserve the best and I'Allah the best is yet to come.
Allah will open the doors to endless possibilities for us to explore and learn together.
And may that possibilities be the best for out little family. :')

Nurul sayang Uzai tau, k...:)

Happy Birthday Dear!

Smelly smelly the nose is naughty

Hello world!

Reporting at 12.12am.
Just vomited some wierd tasting bile!
(disgusting I know! Hihi)

Latest discovery, I cannot go to foodcourts! The smell! Urgh!
Smell of food also causes my throat to clamp up..
The dilemma is that I am hungry but I cant go near food...sobs!

Now, Lil' A be good k...
Mommy wants to sleep...(^_^)

A few more hours to 7 weeks

Past few days have been a dilemma for me.
Nauseousness overload!

Hungry = Nausea
Eat food = Nausea

Im ALWAYS hungry, but when food is in front of my eyes,
my throat just clamps up.
Even if it my favourite food! :s
because of that I can only eat about 2 to 3 spoonfuls.

I feel sorry for the lil one, he/she needs all the nutritions possible.
Hopefully, the nauseousness will go away soon and I can eat and EAT.

Worried

Im worried.
I'm overcame by a myriad of emotions.

The 1st Gynae appointment is still around 3 weeks away.
Why is it that it takes so long to wait for appointments.
As of now I hope the pregnancy that is happening to me is real as real as can be.
Im starting to think, what if it is just in my mind.
But if it is, then why the +ve?
why am I feeling wierd stuff in me and why are my girlies SUPER sore?

Told myself again and again never to worry.
Dr Masayu have already confirmed that there is in fact 'a bun in the oven'.
I am trying very hard to concentrate on my well-being and not think of nonsensical stuff.

I wish I can skip to the appointment date already.

-_-

*6 Weeks 2 Days*

Smooth-sailing

At 6 weeks 1 day
I am feeling alright...
The girls are still pretty much sore,
I'm nauseous as and when but still very tolerable...
Also, been going to the loo for uncountable number of times...probably triggerred by the amount of water I drank...

Apart from that, everything is pretty smooth...
Maybe it is still early...I do hope it will be smooth-sailing throughout...

Firsts

'girlfirend's' sore -checked
Nausea w/o throwing up - checked
Slight cramps - checked
Feeling 'full' - checked
Light-headed - checked

Well, assalamualaikum lil' one! :)

At 5 weeks 6 days!

Gratitude

I welcomed the month of Oct Twenty Eleven with a huge gratitude to the Almighty.
Woke up to a very good news.

Going for the confirmation tonight.
All is well I'Allah.


Terima Kasih Allah. :)

Nothing good to say? So ZIP it!

"Jangan kamu bertanya/berkata sesuatu yang boleh memberatkan/membebankan perasaan orang yang ditanya"
(translation: Do not ask/say unto others whatever that may cause them to feel heavy-hearted/disturbed)

Recently, I've been asked a few questions that in my personal opinion, SHOULD be banned. At times, I'm caught off-guard with these questions. I dont know whether the person asking is purely innocently asking out of concern or are they just dumb.

I've listed below some questions I've been asked:

1) Before I was married, "Eh, bila kau punya turn?" (when's you turn?)

2) After I got Married, "Bila nak ada baby??" (when are you going to have a baby?)

And since, I do not have any child yet, I frequently get these questions:

3) Da berapa lama kahwin, kenapa takde anak lagi?? (you've been married for sometime already, why no baby yet?) - Remind me again how long have I been married? 10? 20 years? Major DUH!

4) Da ada isi belom? (Got anything in you tum-tum already?) - Yah! got Sh** inside! LOL!

5) Kau ni lambat betullah (nak ada anak)! (you took so long to get pregnant and have a baby!) - Eh! dengar2 baby boleh beli je kat kedai?

6) Bila nak tambah umat Muhammad, jangan tgg lama2 nanti kena soal dekat akhirat (When are you going to increase Muhammad's ummah, Dont wait too long, you will be questioned  later at the Akhirah) - and...who are you, again sir?

and the very recent one I got is,
7) Tinggal rumah sendiri berdua je? tak sunyi ke? (you're staying at your own house just the two of you? dont you feel lonely?) - *insert thunder storm and lightning sound*

Initially I find it annoying when we were always asked these sort of questions. After a while, we thought, the best answer would be to say "I'Allah, sedang diusahakan. Awak doakan kami ye" (I'Allah, we're trying, pray for us okay)

What better way to answer that than to ask people to pray for us ain it? at least when the Malaikats Amin, who knows Allah will grant their doas.

But recently, I find the questions that people asked to be more and more.....STUPID?

Question No. 7 really stumped me. WHY on earth would we feel lonely when we are 2 people in love, who chose to marry each other and live with each other? I mean, what are marriages between 2 people for if you want to be with each other and feel lonely?? right? no?

Maybe I took the question the wrong way or something. Maybe I was too sensitive. Relax ah people, apa mau kanchiong. Kita berusaha, Tuhan menentukan. Kalau ada rezeki, I'Allah akan ada.

Which is why I remembered the quotes above, which I heard from Irsyad Radio during Ramadhan. We really should be careful to whom we ask a certain question, especially if we are not that close with the person we are asking the questions to and in which situation. We never know if we might end up hurting others, or make them feel sad unnecessarily.

At least I know I was okay thought-wise until some people decides to ask these type of questions and then I start to feel disturbed. Moreover if they ask questions with a certain sinister tones like "I have a child and you dont? haha."

So people, lets learn from now to be more mindful of our questions k.

Cheers!

Little Princess's Birthday

Nine.September.Twenty.Eleven

6 years ago, she was delivered to a mixed of emotion.
Despite everything that has happened, she was the apple of everyone's eyes.
I was exceptionally happy because she was the next 'related-by-blood' girl after me, in the family.
I used to want to have another girl in the family, so that explains why I absolutely adore her.

Furthermore, she was the first grandchild in my family.
She used to be such a crybaby when she was younger. I still remember how she would cry and cry whenever she came over.
But when she grew out of that, she makes people around her smile with her chatter and liveliness.
I miss that.

Today,
she is a smart and pretty little 6 year old girl.
I pray that she will be a strong girl and make good of herself.
God knows she deserves a better life.
I pray that she will be surrounded by happiness around her.

Happy Birthday Princess!
Though we cant see each other much now, do know that
I Love You and I Miss You.














LOVE, Auntie Nurul

Blogger app

I just found out about this app from my husband a while ago!

Super excited abt it! Been waiting for ages for Blogspot to have its own app! And its FREE!

So you blogspot fans out there, here's a shoutout to you: Go Get you Blogger App TODAY! :)

Im blogging via this app now...:)

Now im a happy girl! :)

Bits & Pieces of My Syawal

Syawal 2011 was a small affair for me and family.
As we grow older, Syawal does not seem to be that much of a big deal, aint it?
Reading my friends' tweets is evident enough.

Came 1st of Syawal, it felt like I have a big burden on my shoulders (eyelids too!)
It was really a tiring day.
I even took half day of work the next day just to go back home and SLEEP! haha..

Nevertheless, even if we dont quite feel as excited as we used to be for Hari Raya,
It is still important for us to feel a teeny bit happy for Syawal.
Afterall, it is a day of celebration for Muslims.
We are encouraged to feel and be happy on this day.
'Eid is a gift for Allah to those who observe their fast.
So, dont forget to show some love okay..:)

Alhamdulillah, this year marked my 2nd year of Syawal as a wife.
This year is also the first time I felt really satisfied with what we have achieved for our house.
It felt much more......Homey and Complete. :)
Alhamdulillah. :)

Here's some bits & pieces of my 'Eid:

Hope its not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya to my readers, IF there's any. teehee..=)

Solemn 'Eid

'Eid is less than a week away, It's a call for celebration with family and friends.

However, this year, I feel a little sad thinking about some family affairs that has happened for the past few months. Solemn. I hope I can be strong when 1st Syawal comes.:'(

Anyways, Im sharing my 2 most favourite, non-Siti Nurhaliza Raya songs. I dont know why but these 2 songs make me tear each time. Abeh suka lagu nie, nk nyanyi jugak! But I cant sing them without choking with tears! (>.<)

Pulanglah - Aisyah:

Kepulangan yang Dinanti - Dayang Nurfaizah's rendition:

In case I didnt get to blog again anytime soon, 
I would like to seek forgiveness from my fellow sisters and brothers in Islam, should I have ever said or did anything that might have hurt you, with or without realising it, for I am a human. To err is human and to learn from them is our responsibility.

Wsalam.

Its not meant to be, yet

'Bestfriend' is finally here.
The wait is over.
Miss P was naughty coming late and making me nervous and confused. 

Its not meant to be just yet.
A teeny weeny bit dissappointed.
But its okay. Maybe next month.

Looking on the bright side,
At least I can really dress up on the first day of Raya! *pujuk hati*
Maybe I should buy false lashes, since last year was a failure coz I needed to pray and the falsies just wont stick again coz I had to put it on and off again before and after ablution. #longestsentenceever

So with this I will have a total of 7 days to payback my puasa. erk!

k k bye.

To be or not meant to be?

Im a day late.

Hopes are starting to bloom.

Signs are existent but a few.

Trying to calm myself down so that if its not meant to be, I wont feel dissappointed.

Good girl.


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Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan

Salam 'Alaikum!

Ramadhan is back again. Let's welcome it humbly and with much happiness! :)

Ahlan Ahlan Ya Ramadhan! :)

Like other muslimin, muslimat, mu'minin and mu'minat,

I pray to Allah that I can achieve a better Ramadhan than previous years.

Oh Allah, please grant me the strength and health to perform my utmost best for this Ramadhan. 

Amin Amin Ya Allah.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan dan menunaikan ibadah puasa dengan sebaik-baiknya..:)

I did it!

Sunday, 24th July 2011.
It was such a memorable day for me.
In my pursuit to lead a healthy lifestyle, i decided to join the annual SHAPE RUN 2011. I joined the 5km run..

Now, as someone who was not an avid jogger, i was a little worried..i thought i would give up halfway...my feet was aching, my heartbeat so fast, my face red and sweaty and i was gasping for air..it was really a challenge both physically and mentally.

Before the run, my heart was beating, i was nervous...luckily i had my husband there to give me his support..he had been my pillar of strength. :)

Throughout the run, i battled with myself..part of me was giving up, another part was telling me to keep going, never give up and that i can do this...i even chugged 3 cups of isotonic drinks, which i so despise! :s Just for the sake of finishing the run..

Just when i hit the 4km mark, i saw my husband standing there waiting for me, my morale was definitely boosted! *i know im so drama, as if im running in a marathon!* but it was my first time, and i knew i had to do my best even if it is just for fun..:D

Finally! When i saw the finishing line, i ran like i never ran before, well partly because i badly need to pee! Haha..

Finishers were given a medal! When i looked at it, i felt a surged of emotion. I had finished a 5km run and proved to myself that i can do it! :D





I.am.proud.of.myself. :D

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Patience, My Dear Girl, Patience

Patience is virtue.
We are always tested and challenged in many ways, everyday without fail.
Sometimes we just feel like giving up.
Why?
We ask.

As I grow older, I think I lost my patience somewhere along the road.
This is too much! why are they doing this to me?why cant I just get what I want?
why is it so hard to achieve my dreams? Why is this happening to me?
There's just too many WHYs in my life.

And then, a few days ago, it struck me like a lightning.
Patience, my dear girl, patience.

Patience is not about waiting, but keeping the good attitude while waiting.
What have I been doing while waiting?
I have been questioning too many things, which I myself am shameful for.

Not everything that we want will be good for us,
and not everything that we don't, is not good for us.
Only He knows best.

And then I told myself,
Patience, my dear girl, be patient.

Good things will come to those who wait. :)

Focus. Live a Positive Life.

I used to refuse to grow up. Believe it or not, I always had this idea that having to grow up and be an adult is no fun. The money matters, the relationship woes, the family issues, career progress yada yada yada..You get the drift.

We simply cant deny the wonders of being a kid. The carefree nature as if all is rainbows and sunshine. It is not surprising that I tried to hold on to being  a kid, a student. Oh! spare me the headache, I would say.

But soon, especially after I graduated, I had no choice. Like it or not, to be an adult and to think like one is all I have and being the eldest child in the family does not help either. Well, I dont have to wait long, all the 'adult trouble' sure stormed in fast and furious.

I thought I could get away with it by ignoring, keeping to a nonchalant attitude but it all kept coming. Imagine a huge balloon looming towards your face, it gets bigger and bigger just waiting to burst in your face. And when it happens, OUCH!

I learn to deal with 'Adult issue' one by one, take one step at a time. Boy, being an adult sure is challenging. No one decision in life is easy peasy.

One of the major decision I had to make was to plan for my own family. The decision making was mutual between hubby and me. All we wanted was for the best. Where family planning is concerned, most people still think it is not advisable especially for a first child. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. My stand is to each his own. We plan what is best for us, rezeki is still from Allah. Now that we are more stable financially, we pray and hope for the best.

Despite the difficult decision making, being an adult is not all that bad. After all, we decide how we want to perceive life as an adult. Now that I am an adult, I choose to see things positive. My mantra, 'Focus. Live  a Positive Life'

Get It Right

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

The Pink S is MINE!

This might be a bit belated.

I.Am.an.owner.to.a.spanking.NEW.Sony Vaio Notebook! (FINALLY!)
and it is PINK! yay!

This is a dream come true. Always wanted a Sony Vaio since Uni days. But the price was a turn off when there was so many other choices.

But still, the Vaio was my secret dream. I told myself one day I'll buy one for myself.

Then last weekend during the IT show, we went to look at the price, and the deal was quite good. But I thought, nah, maybe next time.

But suddenly hubby asked me whether I want it. o_O
like really? seriously?

I was hesitant, kesian pulak nk suruh hubby belikan.

But since it was a great deal, hubby bought the Sony Vaio for me!

*nangis sambil tarik rambut*

Betul ke ni????

and soooo, the pink Sony Vaio S series became mine. :)

Thank you Thank you Thank you sayang!

I wuv you very much! :) MMMUACKS! :)