Loneliness is scary

Reporting from the library multimedia lab..

was studying with k.far and spec

when i decided to log on the net

to check for my CAM marks...

BUT!

its still not posted online...

crap!

ape sey...

how come my lecturers still havent put it online eh?

:(

i went to her office but there was no marks

posted on her notice board..

as for LQ,

hmm...

guess i have to go to celpad and find out...

Bummer..

Anyways,

i'll be sitting for LQ tomorrow morning..

and my parents will be here by tomorrow morning also, insyaAllah..

cant wait to be home...

thats it!

im out..

tata!

p/s: loneliness is a thing that scares you out of your wits....it makes you cry...

yay! tomorrow is final exam...;)

hola...

Im at the CC right now...

ok, i've got my first final exam paper tomorrow morning and.......
what am i doing here for?????

ish!


k k,
i need to print my examination slip,
but the Q, takleh angkatz lah~~~

so i decided to just surf the net while waiting for the Q to subside...

BUT,

after a while,
i turned around and the Q makin panjang laaahhh~~~~

how eh??


ahakz....

nevermind..

luckily i'm quite ready for the exam tomorrow...


so,
tomorrow will be my first paper, Research method..

on the 27th will be Muslim Press....( seram~~~)

on the 29th will be LE...

on the 31st will be LQ...

and then i'll be going home~~~
lalala~~~


But,
i'll be back here again for my final paper on the 9th, which is WNN....
my MOST anticipated paper of the semester...:)


and what's even more anticipated is that dear will be fetching me~~~

yay!! :))

excited nyer~~~

k k,
enough said,
gtg Q for the exam slip...

have to study~~

tata!

p/s: Mary, i might be raya-ing to your house after i come back on the 31st....:)

Chipster...niiiccceee~~

Hey Ho!
reporting from Safiyyah cyber cafe..

Im back again on campus for the Final exams..

The journey back to KL was an exciting adventure...:)

Enjoyed BiBu's Company..

But unfortunately i cant make it to Sepang with the rest of the ESR gang...
boo hoo..:(


Dear...
next year k? k? k?

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anyways,
Im still in the holiday mood...

and i've got a quiz tomorrow and a test the day after...

how eh?

the moment i opened my notes,
i fell asleep...

haiyyah....


i really need a mood booster.....

one with a real 'BANG' in the head....

and i need one NOW...


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want to know what im thinking of now?

FoooooD~~~~

yup...

me? thinking of food?

tak sabar nk beli makanan kat HS...

mcm dah lama tak beli lunch as HS...


nyeh heh heh....


i think i've got to go...

if i dont stop now, i wont stop at all....

i can sit and surf the net on and on and on......

tata!

p/s: there's this new potato chips named 'chipster' ( from twisties) sedap lah seyy~~~Gemuk lah aku mcm nie.....ahakz!

I dont want a JOB interview?

Assalamualaikum..!

Hey everybody..

'Eid mubarak...

minal 'aidil wal fa izin Kullu 'am wa antum bikhair...

:)

Guess what?

I got a job interview just one day before raya...

Somehow,

I dont feel like I want that particular job...

but,

I braced through the interview,

and like a pro,

I managed to convinced the interviewer on my capabilities...

(of coz lah, interview must promote diri mah)

and he said if I'm shortlisted,

I'll be called for a 2nd interview.....

and and and.....

I just got a call from them a few minutes ago....

Gosh!

but I declined the offer...

you must think that I'm crazy to decline...

but,

trust me...

I'm NOT.......

I'm not a choosy person....:(

but,

this particular job is in my no-no list for a full time job...

hmm....

I finally met dear that same night,

after a looooong talk,

I'm convinced I made the right choice....:)

thanks dear...

and thanks for the beautiful tudung and brooches you bought for me...:)

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First day of 'eid was okay...

as usual,

went to grandparents house....

eat, eat and eat.....

I now, retire from ayam masak merah, rendang and lauk lemak

(exculde sambal goreng, coz its my fav! esp, my mom's)

dah semput asik makan lauk2 tu kat semua rumah yg I pegi...

hihihi....

retire kejap je...;)

This year's raya is sooo not fun...

believe it or not,

I kept thinking of the final exam....:(

whatever I do,

CRM, Muslim press, WNN, LE and LQ

is ALL at the back of my mind popping up unneccessarily

at any time around the clock...

Haiyyah....

I have not started reading anything yet....

uwaaa...

I'm going to read something right after this entry....

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Anyway,

a Happy Birthday to my Prince Charming!!

:)

hope you like the b'day surprise I planned for you....:)

you looked happy..

so I guess u loved it, right dear?

hihihi...:)

Love you so so MUCH!!

:)

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before I end,

I would like to..........

(ok pardon me, this part must be in malay)

To all my friends,

sepanjang pengalaman and perkenalan kita,

mesti ada perkataan and perbuatan I yg menguris perasaan..

tak kiralah sengaja atau tak,

sesungguhnya I hanya manusia kerdil yg kadang2 terlupa utk berbuat kebaikan pd org lain..

So,

I susun jari 10, mohon ampun dan maaf

atas segala apa kesalahan yg pernah I lakukan..

Mudah-mudahan

kita semua mendapat satu sinar baru di bulan mulia ini...:)

P/S: TV is soooo tempting time raya2 camni tau...mcmana nk study!! hehe...

A critical week it has been..

Im suffering from separation anxiety..
Cepatlah Rabu...

wednesday is tomorrow,
Its so near yet so far...

I cant think of anything else
except going back home...

i wanna meet him...
badly...

haiyya...

the past few days was tiring and PMSy...
Biasalah kalau dah PMS...
thoughts would wonder and think of the unneccessary...
CRAP!

Midterm today was also crap...
Its all objectives, yet it veeeerry difficult..
coz im very bad with dates and names...

Gee..
Muslim Press reminds me of history subjects
during school days...

punyalah terkial-kial nk igt nama2 and all the dates...


i've got to prioritise Muslim Press before all the other subjects..
i've got to mind map the histories...

Oh Allah....
i seek Your help and Guidance...
Amiin...

okay..
i dont want to think about the past...

going to continue sending out my CV..

tata!

p/s: manusia tak pernah lekang dr membuat kesilapan..

Lots of LOVE~~~~~

ALERT:

To those who is allergic to LOVE, please make way to other blogs...

coz,

believe me,

this entry will make you puke...

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Feeling elated today~~~~

woke up this morning feeling LOVED..:)

I've counted the number of meaningful SMSes from him in my HP,

and.............

it all amounts to 200 SMSes altogether....:)

Honey,

those SMSes means the world to me...:)

How can i not love you...

You made me feel im worth to love and to be loved...:)

The feeling that i've been looking for since years ago...

And this morning,

You made me fall for you, again...

It particularly made my day...:)

You never fail to make fall for you,

again and again....:)

tak sabarnyeeee nak balik...........

I Miss you soooo much lah dear....:(

1 more week to go before i set off to go back home for 'eid..

*sigh*

To my prince Charming,

Your princess here Loves you from the bottom of my heart...;)

A pretty exciting weekend i shall say....

Im back on campus...
Glad to be home for the weekends..

the feeling of 'buka-ing' at home was surreal..
and the trip to geylang was, 'mintak ampun' lah...
hopefully that was going to be my last trip for this month..

malas nk berselit-selit mcm sardin...

I got to meet my 'remedy'..
:)
Lepas rindu i selama dua minggu lebih..:)

Yesterday,
was a different issue altogether...
i suffered 7 hours of urrm... CONSTIPATION lah...
huhu..


It was almost like i was in labour gitu..
ahakz...;)

I almost didnt make it back to IIUM today..
my dad suggested me to go to the clinic and get MC..

well...
i was tempted of course...:)

but.....
considering the responsible person that i am,
i decided not to...;)

i decided to brave through the bumpy 5 hour bus journey
and made it back on campus by 5.20am earlier this morning..

;)

Due to the 'labour' experience,
i got approximately an hour long lecture from my dad...
guess the topic....??






TOPIC:
1- importance of fibre and water in out body.
2- importance of daily and consistent fruits and vegetable intake...
3- relationship between constipation and Buasir...(penting eh pak....????)


interesting huh??


yeah...i thought so too...;p



So yeah...
thats basically my weekend...

pretty exciting.....:)

and now,
its back to finishing my research assignment due this Thursday...
Plus,
i've got a second LE test this Thursday also...

for next week,
ingat dah leh hepi hepi nak balek raya,
guess wat??

i've got a second midterm for Muslim press on tuesday
the day before i'll be going back for raya...

oh!
and and...
i've got another new assignment for WNN,
to be submitted soon...

and and and....
my final xam begins the first day of revision period,
which is on the 25th Oct...

and,
my LQ lecturer decides to give us another quiz on the 22th...

hmm...

ni mmg UIA bagi trus melantak belajar punya...
maklumlah dah 'FINAL of the FINALS' lah katakan....
hihihi...;)

ok...
enough said,
im going to continue looking for my WNN assignment's journal article..


p/s: Dear......i MISS u already....Gosh! :(

emo wreck at the mo

Reporting from the CC..
Life's been hell the past few days...

:(

It's funny how whenever i stayed on campus for more than a week,
things started to go wrong..

people around me started to annoy me,
classes seemed to bore me,
finishing assignments way before due became meaningless
(it HURTS, when that happen)
and
my body does not seem to want to cooperate with me..

:(

maybe,
its just my mind...

its mind over matter after all..

but...

ok ok..
no BUTS...

i MISS home terribly!! :'(

okay,
i wanna cry.....
sobs...

i cant wait for Thursday anymore....
lambatnyer....

haiz...

because im such an emo wreck,
i've gotten my kind LE lecturer's permission to not come to class this thursday...

thanx Miss...:)


so..................
im taking the 1 pm bus back home....

yay!

i'm going to get my remedy
and meet my 'remedy'

:)

miss u honey...:(

FINAL of the FINALS

Three days of sleepless nights,

just to finish the assignment on transnational media corporations..

so that it can be submitted today, on time...

Only to find out that it's due next monday...

Pahhaaaammm taaakk....

:(

and then,

class has been cancelled,

which explains why im blogging instead of being in class..

haiz...

i'm verrrryyyy sleepyy tau....

ok ok....

to look on the bright side,

at least i'm done with one assignment and can concentrate on other things..

Alhamdulillah....

So,

one MAJOR assignment down..

two more assignments to go..

one presentation,

and two more midterms..

before i could finally sit and start revising for the FINALS...

Gee....FINALS lah sey...

this is really the FINAL of all FINALS that i've braved through...

Oh Allah....

Grant me health and strength to go through this one last FINAL..

Amiin....

how much eh?

Im feeling verrry frustrated...

Decided to go to ITD..

Reached here at 3.30..

waited and waited...

people just jumped Q..

bagero betol lah...

finally got a PC at around 4.15...

Tension slowly built up in me..

and when i pushed in my thumdrive where its supposed to go,

It couldnt detect lah...

uwaaa....:'(

Haiyyah....

Dugaan berpuasa.....

what can i do?

Sabar......sabar.....

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Ok,

i've been waiting for time to be on my side..

so that i could update both blog and multiply..

there's tons of pix to be posted..

and even a few videos...

But i guess,

it'll have to wait lah...

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Hmm..

I've also been thinking of money...

money for what?

hihihi...

i wonder how much do we have to save up for ceremonies eh?

ceremonies like...wedding, for example lah...

i mean,

all in all...how much is it generally....

mesti banyak kan...

hmm...

just curious...;)

Hurt

Im Hurt..

with a capital H..

:'(

I hate that person to the core...

one more time,

and you're gonna get it from me...

mark my words...

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Im sorry about what happened last night...

I just want to share with you my woes...

I did not expect you to say those things to me...

i'll prove to you what you want me to prove to you...

*Sobs*

BUGgering

I had a dream...
It was a bad bad dream...:(

Im scared...
Texted him the moment i woke up...:(

haiiyah...

Mudah-mudahan dijauhkan...:(

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Anyway,
my roomie and her friends are starting to annoy me again...

GrrRrR....

They talked and laughed like nobody's business
up till 2 am!
(kak Far mesti you faham prasaan i...)

i couldnt sleep...

and i couldnt wake up early this morning to study
coz,
i just couldnt open my eyes...

Hey!
be considerate lah!
its not your room ONLY hokay!

bugger!
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Ramadhan kareem...Ramadhan Mubarak...

I was sooo anticipating it...
:)


My last Ramadhan in IIUM...

i loike!

hihi...

Seeing double??

Hey all...

Wishing a happy Birthday to my two brothers..

Nope,

you're not seeing double..:p

The twins,

Maman (in black) & Aim (in Green)

koraaaaaang...

Happy 21st Birthday....

baru 21?

budak2 lagi...;p

chill lah..

kikikikiki.....

p/s: maman, PSP bila nak belikan...:p wakakaka...sapa yang b'dae sbnrnya ni haa...;)

Fish soup noodlessssssSalivating..;)

Sempat lagiii nk blogging....;)

I was one happy bunny this morning..

ask me why....

Coz, i get to go to class....

ahakz...

khasanah....khasanah....

:)

anyways..

just one more class at 2 and i'll be going straight HOME...

yay!

and i'll be meeting dearie...

double yay!

:)

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Haiyyah...

Suddenly im craving for fish soup noodle at Banquet...

Mmmm...

my Favourite...

*salivating*

oops!

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Hey,

i've got one more thing to add to my busy Saturday...

My Niece's birthday celebration at Changi Beach...

Yana,

i'll see if i can squeeze some time for the party k....:)

until wat time eh?

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With my busy busy schedule,

i ought to have a Personal assistant...

;)

yeah rrrrright......

dream on khasanah....

:p

But,

there's nothing wrong with dreaming...

right?

;)

k k,

HOME

Here i come............

:)

gtg

tata!

Book-ed

The mid semester break is coming to an end...
i'll be going back tonight and i'll be coming back home again tomorrow

right after my last class...weeeeee~~~~

ahakz...!

yes, im crazy....
but i have to and i want to...

i have plans on saturday and sunday....

The career fair,
The ESR convoi and anniversary dinner
and and and.....
Ratatouille!!!

yay-ness! :)

Im excited.... (>_<)

All adventures on saturday and i just realise i have to book my sunday for studying...
3 midterms this coming week...yikes!

Laziness embraced me already....

But,

thinking about the As that i wanted for this semester,

I HAVE TO......

So, here i come Sunday....

An so you know my schedule for the weekend.....
yup,
Tell me i'm crazy....

but that's me.....;)

p/s: its funny that i have this eagerness to come to class tomorrow....me? biar betul...? hihi...surprise surprise.....:)

what the..

reporting from bedok central KFC:
Got a msg from spec.. SCN is postponed to next semester... Haiyyah!

and then, there's everything else..

Time comes and time goes..
like it or not,

it's already half the semester...

believe it or not,

the Finals is just a blink of an eye away...(well, for me, at least it is)



Geez...I dont think im ready for it..

Still got a lot to read...



well anyway,

the past week have been quite an adventure...



for once, i finished my LE assignment waaayyyyy before due date...

cheyy....;)



There's the Convocation fiesta...

which i looked forward to, very much....

except the convest hill, coz it's such a bother to have to go there and buy food...

i was deprived of eating k.ani's mi bandung tau!

ishk tak aci....

boo hoo!



btw,

congrats to the Graduates...:)





and then there's Farah's admission to HKL...

now THAT was a real surprise....

She was tip-top the day before and the next morning she was sent to the hospital....



Farah, dont you ever scare all of us like that again...

gempar satu UIA tau..

hehehe...



Thank God, she's ok....

Alhamdulillah....:)



And there was the Merdeka celeb

the night when we were waiting for our bus to take us back home...

we ended up playing 'old-time' games just to avoid getting terribly bored...



oh yah!

SCN is coming up soon...

This event has always become the most looked forward event for us...

Especially the international students of IIU...



This year is not an exception...

with new sisters joining forces with us 'the veteran', (ish, busuk nyer...)

the 'kakak-kakak legend is more like it' hehe...



ok ok...

with new sisters joining us, we just couldnt wait no more...

Rock on gadis Temasek...;)



we practiced yesterday at Ayer Rajah CC...

Personally i think the formation of the 'peacock' at the very end was Nice with a capital N!

:)



as usual,

these peeps kalau dah jumpa,

what else?



it's PIX galore....

hehe..



I put my camera to rest...

so i'm waiting for the rest to upload the pix....

korang!!

cepat upload...nak copy...hihi..;)



apart from that,

it's study, study, study...

read, read, read.....



My brain is now full of Reuters, AP, AFP, Globalization and media imperialism...

erk...



and

i've been having flu for the past two days...

which was funny, coz i've been thinking about how it's been so long since i last had flu...



and, Tadaa...!

haaa...amek kau obat...

ahakz....



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People!



Ramadhan is just a round the corner....

Every year, it's the same feeling of anticipation...

Every year, i pray i will be able to do it...



May this year, be the ONE.....

Amiin.....



Ramadhan Mubarak!

what are friend's for

Reporting from Bedok Library..

Reached home at about 10pm last night..

Going to and from KL by bus at this period of time is not quite a good option..
Ever since the bus accident tragedy that killed 20+ people,
The JPJ is having -i think so- Malaysian-wide bus inspection...
especially on the bus driver...

and last night was not an exception...
the long journey was hell had it not been for my company..:)
Thank God...

But, alas..
Im safe and sound...

hmm...
Im having this nagging feeling in me...
about the issue of friendship..

I told a friend that i just cant be bothered to contact them..
:(

ok,
I know it sounded rude and crude and crap and all that..

i was even surprised at myself for saying that...
I did not know where that came from..
It's soo not like me to say things like that..

I could have said i've been busy lately or my phone's lost
or just any other bullshit so that i wont hurt people...

But out of nowhere i uttered those terrible words...:(

or maybe,
that's the truth that's been kept deep down inside me...?
hmm...

see,
life taught me a lot of lessons...
i really mean a LOT..

especially about people...

Im sure many of you have heard that
'whatever people do or think
is because of their experiences or perceptions on life itself...'

right?

i guess that's what makes me who i am today...

I do not like to be forced to tell what i dont want to tell,
I know when people becomes closer to each other, and they call themselves FRIENDS,
they feel the need to know EVERY single things that happens in their 'friends' life...

you may deny,
but that's what i experience...

people talk about others...
friends talk about friends to other friends....
stories changed becomes distorted,
and that destroys FRIENDSHIP..

and that is another experience of mine...

when people becomes closer they tend to want to be involved in their friend's life...

My perceptions says that,
friends does not neccessarily means we have to be involved to each other all the time..
friends try to understand what their friends wanted for their own life..
friends defend their friend instead of talking behind them to other friends..
friends give space to their friends..


Gee...
at timer i wonder why am i being a secretive person,
its because of my experiences, i guess...

ponder, my friend...

im out..

p/s: takut nak berkawan

Rest Relax and unwind?

Weekend was fine..

Weekend was one great, unwinding moment for me...

It's been sometime since i've got the time to really relax as if i own the ticks to time..

Thanx dear for being so sweet and understanding...:)

Such care and love that i appreciate from the core of my heart..

:)

Anyways..

I've got Muslim Press midterm tomorrow and i'm still on page three on the text..

How slow is that...

Im thinking of holidays that's around the corner...

I wonder if i should extend my hols and risk losing two marks for WNN midterm

or

advance my hols instead..

hmmm...

Since there'll be the BBF on wednesday night before merdeka at Marina,

might as well i come back early and not prolong my hols....

ok!

mind's set...

I'll just advance my hols...yay!

hihihi..

Wonder what's BBF like......

P/S: To plan is not just planning, but to execute and to work towards executing it...

Public Relations is my game..;)

Now, at this point of time,
I am missing him terribly...:'(

The moment i reached Larkin last Sunday,
I feel desperately in need to be back home into his arms..:(

I just couldnt wait to be with you this weekend dear...

On the other hand,
I've been pretty busy with the PR exhibition...
a three-day event; the grand opening ceremony was earlier today...

I was the MC for the event...
trust me,
i've been MC-ing for a gazillion times,
this morning's event was by far the most challenging one for me....

For IIUM-ians,
I'm sure you're familiar with any MCs saying

"Announcing the arrival of........."

right?

I've always thought that it was easy peasy....

BUT.....

i realised that, to just say the word 'announcing' requires talent..;)

seriously...

Last night we had a full-dressed rehearsal of the event..
so all of us had to actually perform our tasks just as if it is the real thing..

time checked=8.00 p.m

and so the 'acting' rector, HOD and other VIPs arrived...

I pun apa lagi...

"announcing the arrival of ........."

somehow it doesnt sound right to me...

after the rehearsal,
Mdm commented on a lot of things that needed to be corrected...

and me, especially,
had to go through soooooooooooooooooo many rounds of rehearsing the MC scripts..

Just to get it all right and perfect....

time checked= 11.30 pm

i've already rehearsed for 'i-dont-know-and-cant-count-anymore' times..
i was thirsty and had no energy left....
I still couldnt get it right...

by 12am,
i left the rehearsal, rested and was up and ready in front of the audi by 7 am...

debarannya?
mak ai! takle angkatz beb!

i was shivering...
i was practising my script again and again at the back stage...

Mdm told me to do some mouth exercises...
aha....
so you can imagine me doing all the 'ooohs' and 'aaahs' with my mouth...
hehehe...

exactly on the dot,
( i was impressed..ni bukan janji melayu tau)
we started the opening ceremony...

ceh...
dengan segala semangat yang ada dalam diri,

"ANNOUNCING the arrival of........................."

cheyy badak!
I finally got it right.......:))

quick, congratulate me....;)

terime kaseh...sama-sama kaseh...

kikikiki...

Soon,
i began to fill comfortable and the event went smoothly....:)
even though there were some glitches...

but then again,
to err is human...

and to constantly improve
is our task...:)

Thanks to all the committees for their support..
special thanx to kaed....;)

and oh yes,
before i forgot....
CONGRATULATIONS to liyana (fellow singaporean)
and your group mates,
for winning the PR program proposal competition...
tumpang bangga nih...hihi...



otey...

i've got to prepare for the closing ceremony tomorrow morning..
and for the quiz and presentation tomorrow afternoon...

yikes!

tata!

p/s: pics will be up when i get them from the committees, i dont know when (cant promise)...hihi....