serene and calm

feeling a bit jet-lagged todae...:(

anyway,
i went to an uncle's wedding ceremony yesterday..
i was pretty excited..
its been a loooong time since i last saw all these uncles and aunties of mine...

yesterday was the first..
next week is another aunt's wedding,
and the week after is another...

geez..
three weddings in one go...

and i have an engagement invite from Dila at Skudai...
how am i supposed to go there huh?
hmm....
how i wish i could drive...(all bcoz of that nasty old driving instructor lah..grrr..)

nvrmind that,
look at this pix..














serene isnt it?? :)
i just love this place..and its in Spore u noe...! :)

hmm...
before i end,
just a little note for a friend...

friend,
i love you and i care for you..
i would want to do nothing to hurt you..
please have faith in me,
and we'll be friends til the end of life..
insya Allah...
****************************************

p/s: rindu pelangi yang berwarna warni..... ;)

singapore maid-lah

Howdy people!


Life's been great here back home in Singapore..
i've begun my daily routine of being a part time maid ;)
been running up and down the house with brooms and mops...
tango-ing in the kitchen with pots and pans..
ahakz..drag!

:)

i wanna load a pix of one of my fav spot (just added it to my lists of fav hang out)
but mr. blogger here got probs with it..
so later lah k..?

p/s: Semakin hari semakin indah warna pelangi..

embrace the bed

Alas,
im home!

sleeepyyyy...
huargh!

i see my bed and my pillows waving at me...
calling me to embrace the softness and warmness of the bed...

uwaa...
gtg...

i'll blog later yah...;)

Feeling Rainbowyyyy

I love the rain...
I LOVE the rainbow even more...;)

Rain rain go away...
Ms. khasanah wants to play..
Rain rain go away...
Let the rainbow come and......urmm...brighten up my day...!
hehehehe...

:)

cepatlah abes exam...
dont feel like reading anymore...
wanna rest and play aaaaall day looong~~

Happiness pays

Im such a happy bunny...
i guess it really pays to be happy...
No stresses, No Headache, No PMS (the bestest :)) and u really feel light, healthy and happy inside out...;)

serious...
im not kidding..
:)

This gotta be the happiest month for me this year..
Its great to feel free and loved by so many people..
i even forgot how xams actually scare me...ahakz...
:)

Alhamdulillah...

im waiting for my last paper...
it on the 14th,
and if i can settle the proposal by tuesday, i would go back right after my xam..
if not,
i'd have to wait till 15th to go home...

geez..i dont even mind...:)

haaaiz...
Im high on cloud nine...ahaha...

P/s: happiness brought by rainbows ;)

xam's coming to an end...

5 down 1 more to go...
anticipation is very high..
cant wait to go home..
miss my bed and my fluffy pillows..:(

I have 6 days gap before the next paper (usul fiqh)
gosh! i've so much time under my sleeves..
i've a date with specky on the 11th..
hihihi...feeling very cheeky...
cant wait to sing my heart out..;)

"ais, cepatlah abes xam anti..ana xcited giller nih.."

Life's getting on fine..
Im very happy and contented..
Never had a day gone by without an overwhelming sense of gratitude to Him, the most Loving and Most Merciful..

:) :)

im out..
nak g ronggeng..
ahaha...

p/s: miss my babe..suhaila......

Lost

aaargh!
dear friends..
for your info, i've lost the phone numbers in my HP..
so it might do us good if you guys could msg me ur number again..

To my dearest Suhaila..
if ur reading this,
i miss u..
i need to talk to u..
msg me k..
need ur number..

k chow!

My current status

Tuhan turunkan matahari buat ku...
Namun aku masih menangis mencari kemanakah perginya matahari yang ku sanjungi itu...
Rupa-rupanya Tuhan amat menyayangiku..
Dia datangkan Pelangi buat ku..
Pelangi yang sangat menyenangkan hati...

Sesungguhnya Tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik buatku..
Matahari yang dahulu disanjung tinggi itu,
telah membakar hati dan perasaan ku...

Hujan diturunkan
ibarat penyembuh
kepada luka kebarakan itu...
Sebelum akhirnya
Dia menghadiahkan pelangi
bagiku...

adakah aku masih mahu menangisi pemergian matahari?
Tidak!
Tidak lagi!
Tidak akan sama sekali!

Aku mahu terus
menghargai pemberian Tuhan yang Satu itu..

Aku mahu terus bersyukur
dengan anugerahNya itu..

Aku ingin bergembira
dengan cahaya kegembiraan yang baru itu...

Alhamdulillah....

Me? strong and happy?

I can now truly understand what it feels like to be alone..
its not like being all by yourself somewhere with no one to keep you company..
this is a different loneliness..

despite the fact that you are surrounded by many wonderful friends and families that loved you dearly,
somehow,
you still feel alone..
you feel lost somewhere and not knowing how to come back makes it even more scarier...

having had someone or something for so many years,
holding on to it like you'll never gonna see it again if you lost it,
pinned hopes for happiness,
can just disappear within mere minutes or even seconds..
dreams were shattered,
hopes destroyed...

or maybe,
there's still hope..
only Allah knows...

For God is truly Loving...
He made me go through this test to make me realize that maybe im worth for something better..
He wants to protect me and make me a true and good Muslimah...

I know its not going to be an easy road for me to walk on..
I know i shall shed unstoppable tears for sometime...
But time heals...
I know somewhere within me, i am a strong girl..
God wills...

hmm..

i aint gonna take it anymore

Its Over..
Its finally over..

i dont know what to say...
i feel like im in a dream...
still in daze..

im terrified..
im scared..
im hurt..

:'(

Its totally over....:'(

people say i look like...

Barney and friends

Rayer pix time..!
well this year's theme is purple..
here's some of 'em..malas lah nak upload byk2...
hehe..
k, follow the arrow...














^My bro and family



















^Dini, contented wif da big ball..hihi..














^another cute nephew of mine, mohd Hazeem



















^cewah...playing Fur Elise with Zaki's piano..nmpk gaya pro tak?



















^anak dara saper tu....kikikiki..














^Dad and Nyai..



















^Me and Fitri..














^Family and atok..(Incomplete)

aha...very the puple, very the Barney and friends..
there's more..but next time lah ek..if im free..
:)

chows!

peace lah kawan..

Eid Mubarak to all Muslims all over the world..
To err is human,
Therefore,
I seek your forgiveness if in any way i've hurt you through my words and action..

Ramadhan has left us..
I'm sad though, for not taking full advantage of this blissful month..
May i live to see the next Ramadhan..Amin..

My last note before busying myself with raya and text books..
why are u not replying my msg?
am i at fault not agreeing with those people?
Im sorry..
i just cant accept...

anyway, it eid's eve,
I apologise for all my misdeeds to u..
peace baby...

chow!

eid and xam do NOT go together

Its two more days to 'eid..
Im soo not anticipating it..
y, u ask?
im scared of xam..
uwaa..
kacau lah..
i dont even feel like stepping out of my house..

i think this'll get better only after the final's over..
which,
i definitely cant wait..
sobs..

anyway,
since i was tired of reading my texts,
i cleaned the whole house..
all by myself..
now cantik oredi! :)
im a happy bunny..
with abit of help from fitri and bibik lah..(kes tak kuat nak angkat2 kerusi meja)
plus, i cooked for iftar!
i cooked spicy spaghetti Bolognese..fusion of Malay and Italy herbs and spices..
(ehem..mentang2 nak jadik Mrs KHAnnavaro ;))
cant wait to eat...its two minutes more to Azan..
yay!

i leave u with the new sandal my bro bought for Dini..comel giller..

pretty interesting life

Im home...
kinda jet lagged.
funny coz i think the bus yesterday is so comfy..
i slept like a baby...
i didnt even realised when we were at Yong Peng and slept through till we reached the Custom..

mom and dad is out running errands..
maman is at camp..
aim is working..
abg is at JB..
fitri is playing..
bibik is sitting in the kitchen..
him i dont know..

me?
studying for Finals..

how exciting is that?!
bleargh....

cant wait for maghrib..
wonder what's for buka today...

hoping for something interesting to happen..
maybe tomorrow i will go to Tangs with TF to buy shoes!
mintak2 jadilah..

gtg continue study..

khalas...kullu khalas..

FINALLY!!
all assignments and memorizations and tests - Khalas! finish!

Tuhan saja yg tahu...
what im feeling right now..
the verdict for this semester, now at this point of time : i really really have to buck up for the finals...
im not satisfied with my carry marks...
its crazy...
i really thought this semester was going to be the one that im going to score...
but thats not gonna happen unless i put my heart and soul into the coming final examination...
so, no hari raya for me...

takotnyer!!
the exam fever is coming...
i can feel it...urgh!

gtg..

p/s: going back to spore tonite...and why is it im not that excited...? hmm..

these peeps will be 'gone'

Im saddened by the fact that next semester,
my brother's no longer around,
three of my buddies will be graduating too...
and latest news,
a close friend of mine is going to be a very busy person in her society...

Im happy for her,
but somehow sad...
i've always had her to talk to when im down and when neither my bro nor my buddies are there for me...
and the thought that all these important peeps will be 'gone' is making me go mad...

who am i going to talk to,
who am i going to confide into,
who am i going to go to for a shoulder to cry on,
who am i going to laugh with,
who?

i dont know...

i mean, yes i do have lots of other friends..
but the few that i mentioned has been there throughout my tough and rocky journey here in IIU...

sigh...
it wont be the same without them here next semester...

and to my dear friend (the one who'll be an important person in her society),
Im proud of you...
I know you can shoulder the challenges and responsibilities yet to come..
May you achieve success throughout your reign as the president...cewah!...:)

the day i felt like burying myself underneath the ground

just as i expected,
Things turned out a total disaster..
the pre-presentation was a chaos..

the guy in my group seriously made me hate him..
sorry to say, but he did not make enough effort to show he's worth the 40 marks..
i've decided to tell Dr. Saodah on Monday about what happened..
and how this guy was not of any help at all..

wait a minute!
he did do something instead of nothing,
yep, he irritates me to the max...
he makes me detest group work all the more..
that's what he contributed..

The presentation was an embarrasment..
I wish to withdraw the course than flunk...
:(
**************************************
This semester,
i learned something valuable..
i learned that matters of the heart is fragile...
how you could love and hate somebody within seconds..
how you could love someone you thought you wouldnt love at all..
how you feel when someone told you they love you..
how you feel when someone told you they've been thinking of you...
these,
despite knowing that it is impossible to happen...

I learn to react to things calmly,
you know, without having to blow my top everytime people irritate me..
I learn to think time and again for the consequences of each of my every movements..
I learn that it is ok to widen my horizon..
I learn to accept what is fated for me..

Gee....
luckily i have this secretdoor...
if not,
i might suffer from problems clotted in my heart and brain,
having to keep things to myself...
**************************************

Its a few more days to Eid..
I wonder what its gonna be like this year...
i dont really look forward to eid that much this year...
arent i funny...
maybe it because of the exam thingy..
takots beb!

argh! im out..

presentation and the hell effect of it

Shoots!!
i've never in my entire life become scared as i am now, for a PRESENTATION...
(comm theory - with the nonsense group i blogged abt recently)

aaaargh!
help!
i dont want to go ahead with the presentation and die of shame..
i'd rather die jumping from KLCC's height..
This whole assignment is like living hell for me...

ok ok obviously i'm exaggerating..
BUT thats what im feeling right now..

ok, i'd better stop now,
before i really, literally go jump off a building....yikes!

erk, is it possible if skip the clock at 11.30 am??

ok, im out!

home to lontong goreng

Its been quite sometime since i've not been home...
I've not had iftar with my family...
I did not even want to go back home until 22nd of this month...
this decision of mine caused worry to some peeps...

My brother, esp,
has been bugging me to go home...

It wasnt only until yesterday i decided to relent..
i'd actually decided to go home since early this week..
but thanx to my dad's remarks,
i cancelled..(merajuk lah konon)
i sooo did not want to go home at all...

it spoilt my mood for the WHOLE week..
thanx alot dad...

after much pacifying by my bro,
i relented again...
plus,
my mom said ok when i asked her to cook lontong goreng for me...
so,
yep, cant wait to dig into the lontong goreng...

This week is assignments and presentations week...
despite having tons to be settled - still at hand,
i was dumbfounded when my lecturer gave us another presentation....
what??
another presentation, now?
when its almost the end of the semester?
erk, hello...we still have tons to finish tau!

haiyyah...
u guys still remember the research grp i blogged abt recently,
they irritate me soo that i couldnt even looked at them in the eye..
esp with the bro..

i've had my qualms about working with male counterparts,
had a few bad experiences,
but i always try to think positive,
and when they started to work nonsensically,
the bad impressions i had earlier prevails! -meaning, no more sorry sorry okey....

i guessed they realised that im already angry,
so just now they really took charge of the research paper...

hmph!
tau takpe...
im a nice person,
but dont ever mess with my patience...
once i get angry,
erk, yikes!