the ones I will miss

When one leaves a work place for good,

there will definitely be something that one will miss about it.

In my case,

I will miss my 2 sweetest colleagues..

Ever since I graduated,

They are the FIRST female colleagues I've ever had..

People say female colleagues can be very bitchy at times..

But thats not the case for these 2 girls..

When times are bad in the office and when things get crappy,

They brighten up my day..

Hello everybody,

Meet Yatee and Junn..

Junn was a writer in the company..

She made my days in the office brighter with her laughter..

LOUD laughter and infectious too..:)

She loves Belle from Beauty and the Beast,

and she often spilled coffee on the carpet, on her dress, on the table, anywhere..

hihihi...;)

Yatee is the designer..

She is my Ice cream buddy..

when we feel like indulging in a sinfully delicious rich ice cream after a full meal,

we will go to the ice cream cafe downstairs..

She's also my 'bekal' partner..

Most of the time she brought lunch from home,

now that Im leaving, her new partner will be the new guy in the block, Wady..

hihihi...

When these 2 ladies are put together in one office,

they instantly brightens up everyone's day..

They are also 2 of the most generous people

I've known..

Sometimes when I reach office in the morning,

there will be chocolates, curry puffs and lots of other goodies on my table..

Memang rezeki melimpah..

May Allah bless them with more rezeki always..

Amiin..:)

Thats why I said,

I will definitely miss them both!

Eager to scream

Oh yeah...

Today's the day..My last day with this company..

Despite the downside of my experiences here, I cannot deny the fact that I had my fair share of good times too..

The highlight of it all, was when I finally get to meet CT!

Now, its time to close one chapter and open a new one..

I pray that this new chapter will be a better one and there will be no scary episodes in it..

Please....

I must also remember my promises to Him Almighty..

For a last day,

I am VERY early for work..

I have organised every files and folders so that it is easy for my replacement later..

(am I good or whaaat??)

and,

I really cant wait for this day to end...!

Eager to scream "IM FREE!!" at 6 o' clock today..

P/S: feeling slightly down...hmm..

P/s/s: my sweet colleague just gave me my FAV choc bars! nak cry leh..huhu..

What A Monday

What a Monday!

First,

I got busted for being late to work..

All due to some "unforeseen" circumstances..:p

Im so going to go to work early tomorrow..

And then, another client postponed their ad,

hence, not helping my already little revenue...:s

Yeah,

I think that it is a sign for me to leave..

I've got 11 or 12 more days before I say goodbye..

I'd like to appreciate every last moments I have here..

The good ones that is..

Cant wait for a new life..=)

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan hambaMu ini..

Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Memahami..

Amiin..

Once in a lifetime

Today, I just want to remember the best thing that happened recently,

that made me feel over the moon...

THE day I met my idol,

D*ato' S*iti N*ur H*aliza..

Met her at the R*oyal P*laza On S*cotts Hotel..

It was the Press Conference for S*uria Elektra..

God knows how I felt at that point of time...

hihi..

let the pictures do the talking aite? ;)

I'll remember this, forever..=)

DREAMS can wait long long (NOT!)

"sometimes its not that we want to be choosy, but we have important things to factor in thus we request a certain expectation..but people dont know that..and when we give in and follow suit, we face with hardship in life..who wants hardship? nobody..*confuse soul*"

That, is my current FB status. I am in a state of confusion.

I might be jobless starting April.

I've been looking around for a new job for so long..So so long..

All I wanted is for people to appreciate me..I work I commit..

but why did I always end up feeling cheated.

Who says $ is not important?

Dare you say that to my face and I'll knock you down with my smelly socks..

Without $ I can never achieve dreams..

Dreams of studying, dream of making my parents and parents in-law happy, dreams of making it big with my passion in photography, dreams of traveling to the places I dream of going before I die, dreams of having a child and to care and nurture him/her to the very best...

DREAMS...

How do we ever achieve them without $..?

I took my bachelors not without $ problems..

I troubled my parents (and aunt, God bless them all) enough to make sure I graduated..

All these is with a LOT of $..

Now, when I wanted to get a job, that pays well,

people just dont appreciate..

(dengar2 dulu belajar FREE)

They give a measly $ and demand that a 3 to 5 person tasks to be done in a day, by 1 person..

They can even toy around with my $, and claimed that the company is not making $..

hmm..

should that be the case?

Im getting more and more scared to get a new job because Im scared I might land one that is no different from the others..

really...

Now, I've 4 interviews..

1 shift work and 3 9to5..

I dont know whether to accept the shift job, should they offer me..

Time is the big factor..

the other 3, is normal working hours..

Should they accept me,

I pray I will get a $ that is reasonable..

If not, my DREAMS shall wait long long...

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That Precious Little Darling

Visited bestie's crib today...
was so excited to see her newborn..

Nour Qasrina,
she's so precious..
those tiny little fingers melted my heart..
her adorable cheeks are just so kissable and munchable..































Bought her these little darlings..
am glad you liked it Su..=)






























One day when Qasrina wears them,
take pictures and show me okay..=)

Here's one more for you people to boogle (read: baby+oogle) at..
teeheehee...;)


































Good night Darls! =)

I SEE YOU IN COURT

I really do not know how to describe what Im feeling right now..

Its been a crazy roller coaster ride with this issue..

He's THE photographer from hell!

Dont know whats up with him,

Is it so hard to just give me my wedding photos?

We didnt even bother him with all the editing, just a simple, "take pictures, give us the raw files. Thats all"

And that took him almost 3 months and counting..

I am clueless to whether I will ever get my photos back..

He turned the table, and blame me for this problem..

When clearly, he's the problematic one!

Whats his problem?

We dont know..He didnt tell us anything and kept playing with time..

Today we found out that he's going fishing!

fishing! can you comprehend that??

No time to give our wedding photos, but can still have fun and go fishing?

wth??

He is, my BIGGEST regret in life..seriously!

Im giving time until tomorrow, and if its still the same

thats IT, we're going the legal way..

Money, we can get back..

but memories of my solemnisation is priceless..

Im not going to get my $600 back, but Im asking for more..

To compensate the trauma that im going through because of this bugger!

I'll see you in court. LIAR!

Back to My Roots

I AM BACK!!!

Gosh! I miss blogging from my Secretdoor!
New life new blog layout..hope you like it..=)

Been thinking of the new layout..and after much thought, this is it!

If you like it, do show some love at my tag board okay! ;)

so sorry to trouble you, but if you've linked me on your blogs with seventhepisode, do not delete it as that webbie is still active but for professional purposes..thats where the photography portfolios are..

for my blog, its here! at my dearest secretdoor.blogspot.com


till we meet again in the another entry,

Good night mua darlings!

Relink! Relink! Relink!

Hello everybody!

I am no longer blogging here

I now blog from my own webbie..

So what are you waiting for!

Click on the link to go to my new home:

www.seventhepisode.com


Relink me! =)

Should I or Shouldnt I?

Hey All..

I really could not sleep...
So many things on my mind...
But nowadays,
I feel I could not share things that is on my mind, here in this blog...

Everything in my mind lately
has been very private and complicated to talk about in this blog...

I have to find other alternatives,
I guess..

A thought came to my mind just a sec ago..
I'd like to close down this blog...



Shocking?
NO? hmm...

I dont know...


I just want to open a new chapter in my life..
Wish to forget everything in the past,
starting this very moment...
Just start everything with a clean slate...

I've penned every bitter sweet moments in my life,
here in this blog...
This blog is like my heart monologuing just about anything
that came across it...

But really,
Most of the things in my heart cant be typed out
and be shared with anybody anymore..

Therefore,
I thought,
should I or shouldnt I?

I'll give myself just one more day to think,
and we''ll see whats the outcome...

meanwhile,
Please excuse me
While I continue to think...

Excuse Me

Please excuse me,
I NEED to scream.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Ya Allah,
Forgive me for not being strong..

I need Your help,
Without which,
I am incapable..

Ada Masa Mata

This new song by Siti Nurhaliza,
touched my heart..
The lyric is meaningful..

"kadang-kala orang menilai secara dasar..
dan lupa nak mengenali hati budi orang yang lain"

ADA MASA MASA
BUKAN DENGAN MATA
NAK MENILAI RUPA
MANA CANTIK, MOLEK DAN MANIS
TETAPI ITU KERJA HATI
MELIHAT DARI PEKERTI

ADA MASA MASA
DARI SISI SAMA
MASIH TETAP JUA
PANDANGAN BOLEH BERBEZA
ASALKAN SAJA DI HATI
SUDI CUBA MEMAHAMI

ADA MASA MATA
ADA SAHAJA
ADA YANG TIDAKLAH KENA
CEREWET MENCARI SEMPURNA
TERLUPA APA BERHARGA

ADA MASA MATA
ADA KETIKA
TAK TERLIHAT CELA
KERANA HATI SUDAH SUKA
SEPERTI JUGA AKU
BILA MENGENALI DIRIMU

JANGAN KUNCI
PINTU HATI
LEPAS PANDANG
SEBALIK DIRI
BILA INDAH TELAH PUDAR
ATAS APA KITA BERDIRI

I am FREAKIN ANGRY

People who know me personally would say
Im not the angry type of person..
Even if Im a victim, I would still take my time to think,
whether I should scream at people that annoy me or not..

Most of the time,
I would just let it go and just imagine I scream vulgarities at them
and do something terrible to them in my head...

So far,
NO ONE in this world has caused me to want to do
other than that..

BUT!

This one particular person...
A girl...
Whom my mother fondly titled her as 'anjing gila'...

This girl has been in the picture ever since me and my brothers
were still in secondary school....
(that was around the year 2000)

The whole family tried not to judge her...
But time and time again,
she proved us wrong..

She caused our family to fall apart like crazy....
She bad-mouthed people..
She makes 'drama' just to get attention..
She shouted vulgarities at BOTH MY PARENTS!!!
She shouted vulgarities at HER PARENTS!!
She freakin' smokes ciggies..
She talks rude..
She influenced our in-laws by badmouthing us...
and many other BAD BAD characteristics....

(I tried to be kind and look at her good side instead, but she's gone too far that I simply CANNOT look at her good side!)


All that and she can freakin' ask people
'why people dont like me??'

Whatda??!!!!

Since she cant be changed and does not want to change,
My family just cant be bothered with her...

But yesterday,
She did it again..
she just somehow manage to irritate people with
her nonsensical behaviour!

She went to my aunt's house!

My aunt doesnt even know her!!!
and was startled to find a crying girl
at her doorstep...

Begging to meet my brother,
and saying she wants to kill herself..

You want to kill yourself,
so??
Go and freakin kill yourself lah..
None of our business!!

Good then!
That's one crazy person down..
The world does not need a person as outrageous as you!!

Its all for attention..
No one in the world who wants to kill themselves,
would tell people that...

they would just go and DIE lah!

STUPID!


My aunt had no choice but
to get her in the house and let her tell
her 'pitiful' story...


What a shameless person!
pegi rumah sedara mara orang
and then bukak pekong sendiri??

Dasar perempuan tak tau malu...!!


Even with all these nonsense,
I've always reserved a thought that maybe she's not that bad...


BUT!!!!!
until one particular Ramadhan..

She kept calling my house...
When I finally had enough,
I answered and told her that its maghrib, and
that as a girl she should be ashamed to be calling
and annoying people like that...

And guess what??

She smsed my dad
to freakin tell him 'to watch his daughter's mouth'!!!

Whatda!!!??
Who the hell is she to tell my dad to do that???
Mother Bugger you!!!

Now,
you tell me perempuan jenis apa tu??

is it her or is it just me??

From that day onwards,
I shut all reservations with regards to her good characters!


Any sane person in this world would NOT want to be friends
or entertain her nonsense...!

What can I say,
She's desperate!

I personally believe,
Akhlak dan peribadi seorang wanita tu harus dijaga..

I believe,
that a person CAN change from vices to virtues..
But,
Kalau rasa kesedaran, humility and malu tu dah takde langsung,
ginilah jadinya...



Sidenote: This is me being VERY ANGRY. The very seldom emotion has come.

Just an update after so long....

I have been very lazy updating my blog.
Pardon me, but every single time I thought of blogging,
I felt like gagging..

OK, I'm just saying that just cause it rhymes..
DRAAAG!
:p


The house is still under renovation..
I'd say its 80% done...
Hope it'll be 90% by the end of this week
and all done up by end of next week..

Its really squeezing the juices out of me, this whole renovation thingy..
Every end of the day made me feel too tired to do anything else...
We are like tourist in our own country...
Staying from one hotel to another, one chalet to another and one relative to another...

The part I hated most is the packing and unpacking of stuff..
Mind you, I have my facial wash set, my tons of clothes (I work Mon to Sun),
my basic make-up necessities, my personal toiletries, etc...

I'm a girl, I have lots of stuff, you know...

So every time we move, I have to lug this hee-yuge luggage
around..

I just hope at the end of all this,
Its all worth it!

I can see my house my parents' house
starting to look all modern and chic...
ahakz...

and I requested my room to be painted in two shades of PINK!!
yay!


Oh btw,
I have officially closed my friendster account!

I've been meaning to do it since many many moons ago...
I don't know what held me back...
But anyway, I did it!
and it felt good! =)


and oh,
A happy belated new year to all of you!

I refuse to have any resolutions..
Cause it all never really came true...

Im just going to focus on the plans I've already been working on for this year...

I pray it will all unfold smoothly..
Amiin...


Tata!

My Precious Blue Gem

I've been very busy..
Juggling stuff here and there..

So busy I forgot what its like to jump for joy...

Until one day,

THIS!

caused a big fat chesire cat GRIN on my face!

=)

A gift from Love..

A token that we're meant to be..

and that we are well on our journey

to become 'Mr. and Mrs.' soon, InsyaAllah, he said.

=)

This precious Blue Gem,

I Love and care with all my heart..

Thank You Darling! =)

:(

Emosi terusik.
Perasaan terguris.



Sedih sangat...:'(


It is my fault..
Im such a dumbass...


Im Sorry :'(

Crazy Ending And Beginning

I forsee a CRAZY end to 2008 and beginning to 2009!

The whole house will be up for renovation..
And the whole process will last for almost TWO freakin month!

I cannot imagine my life staying in a house with DUSTs (lots of ém!)..

And there will be days where the family will be staying at a
country club (I think) for 3 days
just because the contractors are going to lay out some stuff on the
flooring and nobody should be around..

Im thinking maybe I should take leave from work during those few days..
so I can feeling-feeling tai-tai, you know...;)

But whatever it is,
I just want the days to past by FAST..
so we can all enjoy the 'new' house..

and sleep peacefully..

:)


Im out.


Tata!

Towards the SEVENs

Oh Gosh!

I've abandoned my blog for quite sometime..
The problem is,
I am having the writer's block syndrome..
erkk..


Well,
For now, Im just working towards the SEVENs..
It is something significant for me..
Everything is 'scrimp and save' at the moment..
Just to make sure that the SEVENs will come true..=)

May Allah bestow His assistance upon me..

Amiin...

Show Me The Path

Its like in sitting in a black box,
Four dark walls around me,
Nowhere else to go to..

Im still searching,
Im still thinking,
Im still confused..

I used to know,
But now I dont...

I dont think I can breathe,
Im stuck..

I want to get out,
I want to break free,

But where do I go?

Im scared I would make a wrong turn,
and never be able to get back to my comfort zone..

What if I fall?
I'd be alone..
Nobody would know the pain I'll feel..

Im scared....

Oh Lord,
Show me the light,
Show me the path I must walk on
to rediscover myself...


Oh no,
Oh no,
Where has my courage gone to?

NotTheBestOf Me

Not in the best of mood..
Is it really this pressurising?
Is it really this crappy?
Is it really hot these days?
And why am I so thirsty since this morning?
Is facebook photo uploading giving me a headache?
Do I really have to go to work tomorrow?
Is my family really going to Kota Kinabalu WITHOUT me?
Am I really going to be all alone come next weekend?
Is there really going to be a measly bonus end of this year?
How come everybody irked me?
And why am I feeling angry, anxious, annoyed, sad and restless
all of a sudden??

I am anything but joyful...:(


Seriously,
2008 has been a hell of a year...

There's still a month and a half more to go...
I dont wish for anymore nonsense..

:(

I Paling-mesra-pelanggan But I still get Shit!

Tiba-tiba hari ini perasaan hati saya rasa
macam nak sebut perkataan favorit ramai...

F***!

Boleh tak?



Saya tak suka minta duit..
Memang dari dulu saya tak suka meminta duit..
Sebab tu tak boleh jadi treasurer...
Kena tagih duit dari ahli kelab and so on..
Eeee..tak pandailah...

Tapi apakan daya,
Tugas saya memerlukan saya menagih duit dari
klien-klien....

Tagih bagai nak rak pun, belum tentu they will give us the cheque
in due time..

Sampai hilang sabar rasanya....
Si Pengurus dah sibuk tanya-tanya
"Have you called them?"

Dah. Dah.
Saya dah kol banyak kali,
saya rasa Im now the 'Most favourite person' bagi
klien-klien semua..

Hari ini,
Saya cuba kol lagi..
Walaupun rasa tension sebab nak kena minta duit..
(read: I dont like to ask for money)

Suara saya paling-mesra-pelanggan-dalam-dunia
masa kol mereka tadi...


Saya: Hi, Good Morning! This is Nurul, calling from C*ar B*uyer..
Pelanggan: Oh, hi... (tak mesra sungguh!)
Saya: Im calling regarding the overdue payments. How's the cheque?
has it been approved yet?
Pelanggan: (as always) No not yet.
Saya: I see..My record says the payment is over 90 days due..
Pelanggan: (sounded pissed!) I check, I call you later.. (TAK akan pernah kol balik)
Saya: Ok, Thank you.. Hope we would be able to get it by this week..
Pelanggan: yah yah..im busy..bye!
Saya: (-_-) Whatda!!!


Haiz...

This has been going on and on...
setiap kali saya kol,
KONFEM ada yang rude!

And almost all the klien memperlakukan saya sebegitu...
Sakitnya hati.........

kenapa mereka yang pissed?
Sepatutnya saya yang marah sebab klien tak bayar,
saya yang kena soal dengan boss...

Hello~
Bukan kena bayar pun untuk berbudi bahasa...




So how?
Boleh tak saya kata "F***!"??





Bengang!

Isnt She Precious

People,

Say hello to.....







My little princess!!
















Some of you thought I was going to adopt a real baby girl...
But sorry to dissappoint you...*wink*

hihihi....


Still thinking of a cute lil' name for it..

Wait for more news...........~~



:)

WantToAdopt

Congratulations to FH for his license! :)
I knew you can do it..:)

Anyways,
I've been looking around to adopt a baby girl..
I've prepared little by little the play area and stuff..
Oh Boy oh boy!
Im excited!

;)


Tata!

Ice-Skating and a Famous Person

Its a lazy Sunday..
I wish I could laze around till night time,
But I have to go to a wedding dinner tonight..


But anyway,
I had a wonderful Saturday!

First of all sorry to the babes,
I cant join them for their raya-ing...
I already made reservation and plans for yesterday
since a few weeks ago...


FH is going to be a year older this Monday,
Since its a working day,
I decided to celebrate earlier...

Made a lunch reservation at Grand Hyatt Hotel..
Reached there early...
Chill and cam-whore for a bit...=)

Haiz bilalah nak makan...



















And then we had our lunch which was fine
(Read: fine-dining ;))

I didnt take photos of the food..
was starving, so I totally forgot...

Tummy filled,
we headed to Kallang Leisure Park
for Ice-Skating!!



















That was my FIRST time...
Seriously I was nervous but excited to try..
It was cold,
but I was sweating like crazy....

I think it was my nerves..
hehe...

It was a good start...
Steady...steady...
and then, Bedebab!!
I fell....

Embarrasing?
YES!

But its was funny...
And that was the beginning of a series of falls...*shakes head*
Even after I got the hang of it,
I still fell a lot! *shakes head again*

Nevertheless,
It was super fun..

My skate figures..














Yay! I can skate now...=)



















with Flow....















Me trying to catch up....erk...




















Dear even joked:
"Sports ni lah baru tak kisah muhrim ke tak.."
Me:
"apsal pulak?"
Dear:
"sebab pakai gloves"
Me:
ROFL :p

In the end I didnt break any bones,
Good! ;)
It is now in our list of favourite pastime together..=)
And that was the end of our fun-filled day...=)

And then at night,
My brother called me
saying his friends-his band mates will be coming to our house for raya..

I waited and waited and waited,
and gave up...

I went to bed
only to be awakened by a knock on my door..

My bro and his friends were here already...
I said I cant be bothered....

But my mom came into my room and took my fan away..
so I couldnt sleep...
huhu..
I had to wake up no matter what..
hmph!

When I stepped into the living room,
I saw his friends,
one of them the famous AA...

Can you spot him?















Try again...Spot him...















Hopefully you guess right,
its A*liff A*ziz...

Because he came I have to wake up...
grr....:p

Nasib baik awak kelakar and tinggi dik.. kalau tak, akak tuang sirap merah kat baju putih awak tu... haha....

My mom was happy to entertain him and the other friends, though...
In my heart: "suka betul mak aku"
hihihi....



















They came, eat and sing...
SING??
yup...penting eh..?? ahakz....

And then off they went...
Naik lori tau....ahakz....

Haiz...

And me,
happily got my fan back and off to lala land~~

End Note: Happy Birthday Dear...!! Hope you had a wonderful time too!
Kita Sayang Awak (^_^)





















Tata!

Surreal Yesterday

Yesterday felt surreal..
We've been waiting, for the day with much anticipation
that when it actually came,
we didn't know what we should do...

We looked around for a bit...
Browse and commented a lot...
Its hard to have two different opinions
and want the best choice for both
at the same time.....

We had to scrutinise every single detail....

And then,
THERE!

There was the perfect place
that met our expectation...

To satisfy our curiosity,
we went to check out the place...

Oh yes! It was love at first sight....
The size,
The community centre,
The market place,
The bustop,
The MRT,
The Mall,
The neighbour,
The Place itself is so welcoming....

Somehow,
It felt right.....

We were both at peace with the place,
we started to imagine what we could do to it...
Sprucing it up with this and that,
How we are going to go about going to work
and even
which room is for what....


That's how surreal it is,
yesterday......

And than we applied....

The number of many others like us
who applied was way too many....

5th November,
We are keeping our hopes up..
So that it will become ours,
One Day....


This,
Marks our journey to embark on the future....

IÁllah....
Amin....

All P*INC and Shiny

Its been a week of Raya..
My only jalan-jalan was on the first day of 'eid
and the fourth day (that was only one house)..

Thats all..

When you're a working adult,
You dont really get the chance to go raya-ing
as much as you used to during school years...

Darn!

No wonder I got an instinct to not shop for raya this year..
ahakz....

Anyways,
After a hectic month in Ramadhan
helping out my mom with the cleaning and stuff-
tangan and kaki da macam orang keje kontrak-

So I finally get to do some manicure and pedicure!!

We went to P*INC at causeway point















Although Mary did hers a few days before,
I begged her to do it again...;)
maceh ye....














It was fun!
and I LOVE my shiny nails....
hehehe....



















Premium pedicure..cost a bomb..
But it was really really good....
My feet were as soft as a baby's..














My nails all oiled...














Would love to do it again next month...=)



I heard about a book titled
"The Last Lecture"



















I Googled it
and found it to be interesting....

So I ordered it from K*inokuniya...

Have not read it yet..
Still reading J*odi P*icoult's "Nineteen Minute"

Cant wait to finish it and move on to The Last Lecture...!


I had this weekend all planned...
But looks like there might be some changes...
Hoping that my plan remains as it is...



Tata!

My Mantra.

Hey..
Before I go to bed
allow me to spill a few things thats been 'playing' around
in my mind...

When I was a little girl,
I thought life was easy...
Everything was a breeze....
Whenever I saw adults having to face with some sort of issues and problems,
I thought " hey! Its tough being an adult huh..Im lucky Im a kid"

I almost wished I dont have to grow up..

Now that Im all grown up,
I have no choice but to BE an adult...
Do those things adults do...

Albeit all the fun parts
i.e. falling in love, work and get money, etc,
*wink*

I have to admit its really really tough...
So many challenges to face
So many issues to brave through..
So many matters to think of...

Im actually in a midst of thinking and planning
for the future...

Sometimes when I imagined of all the good things coming,
I get all excited
but I shuddered too much at the thought of the more serious stuff
that all the good things doesnt seem to be appealing anymore....

Love.
Finances.
family.
career.
etc.
etc.

juggle.juggle.juggle.


Might be all beds of roses in the first few years...
Im not too worried about that..

I badly want to be sure that I will be able to juggle it well
after the beds of roses period........

Get what I mean?

I guess,
Its a team effort...

"seseorang itu harus mempunyai sikap 'kuasa' untuk melakukan sesuatu walaupun perkara itu kecil" - Masturah Ahmad

Its my mantra for now..

;)




nuff said.

Im going to bed.

Tata!

My super low key raya...

As known,
my éid was low key...

But prior to the news that my Gradma was admitted to hospital,
My family was still at home...

My bro and his family came...

Had a little fun with lil'Dini..
She and her Barney bagai tak dapat dipisahkan lagi...
hihihi....

I gave her my camera and...
voila! shes a pro for kids her age..;)

She just couldnt stop shooting...
Boy, was I entertained...
hehehe...

These are some of the peek-chas she took...














Complete family portrait...














My bro and his family...














And there she is..
Miss Dini aka "I-am-Barney's-number-1-fan"
;)



















Raya treats....















My zakat for the kiddos...
(I've got a gazillion little cousins, nieces and nephews..kwang3)



















And thats all
Coz I cant possibly take pictures in the hospital
can I...





PS: There goes my surprise...Surprise!! ;)

My Prayer...

Hey
Its the third of Syawal..

I'd like to apologize to each and every one of my friends,
acquaintances and fellow blogger/blog readers for any blunders and mistakes
I did, intended or not..

Hope all of you had a wonderful 'eid..:)

Mine was low key
as my grandmother was admitted to hospital
the very 1st day of eid..

She fell,
broke her hip bone and fractured her wrist..:(
What worries me is the fact that she fell and fractured the same
hip bone some time earlier this year..:(

I pray to Allah Almighty,
May my beloved Grandma stay strong and
she will get well soon..

I extend my prayer to my sister in law's mother
who was also admitted to hospital for a minor stroke..
Syafahallah...










PS: Dilemma and Worried of what the future holds..

Lucky

Dedication to FH:


Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday




*sigh*

(^_^)

F1 + Lewis Hamilton Craze

Hello people..=)

Guess what??

I just got back from the F1 practice sessions at the singapore street circuit!
Verdict: I loike!

Well,
I was contemplating of getting out of the office early today,
and while I was at it,
my boss came to me and gave me TWO free tickets to watch the F1 practice sessions!

Boy was I excited!
I stopped contemplating and made my way down town to meet up with FH..
Bought some munchies for break fast and off we headed to the circuit..

I was in awe..
It was my first time ever watching an F1 race...
seriously!
And the only thing that comes to my mind when you mention F1 is: Lewis Hamilton and Ferrari...
Ask me anything else, I dont know..hihi...

The reason I was particularly intrigued by this year's F1 is the fact that it is in Singapore....
The first ever night race in history of F1 racing...
I was even more curious as to how the circuit would look like...
Hey, its the Singapore roads that we're all familiar with,
and all of the sudden its an F1 race track...

To be honest,
I was quite impressed with the circuit!
Who would have thought that Raffles Ave, St. Andrew road, Esplanade drive and Nicoll Highway can become a race track huh....

The whole area was brightly lit up as if it was daylight...
The Sound of the F1 cars was deafening but it kinda bring the excitement up...:)

I was secretly-no openly-happy the fact that Lewis Hamilton was in the first place among all other racers during the first practice session...
He came in third during the second session, but who cares when he is so gorgeous...;)

Hehehe...

Enough of the ramblings now,
Lets the peek-chas do the talking...
( I really wished I had a DSLR with me just now..But we just make do with what we had..hihi)




















Our tickets! Came with a nice lanyard..
















Im a very happy girl!















The big screen right in front of where we were seating...strategic seats we got eh...;)















Lewis hamilton's car!! ;)















Ferrari...I loike!















The Grandstand next to ours..














That Him! Lewis Hamilton! I loike!















Last But not least,
Tried to take pictures with one of the cars,
jadi lah ek...daripada takde...;)

After the practice sessions,
My ears felt numb...
hihihi...
Hope I wont go deaf tomorrow...
Need my ears to teach...ahakz..

Now,
Will you please excuse me,
I need to go get my beauty sleep....;)



Im out!
Toodles!

Pandangan 2 Sen Saya

Raya bakal menjelang tak lama lagi..
Suasana di Geylang masa saya cuba-cuba berjalan kelmarin,
amat sesak dengan pelbagai ragam manusia yang tak kurang
''warni-warni'' nya..

Kenapa saya kata warna-warni?

Haa..manakan tidaknya, ada yang rambutnya bagaikan pelangi,
mana yang baju nya macam tak cukup kain, yang dah macam sarung nangka,
yang badan dah macam lukisan bergerak pun ada and also yang membuat mata saya berasa silau semacam dek aksesori emas dan perak yang di cucuk tang sana cucuk tang sini..


Astaghfirullah...detik hati kecil saya...

Sempat juga saya menjeling kearah segelintir mereka ini yang begitu happening bershopping sakan..
Baju raya, kasut raya, perhiasan rumah dan yang sewaktu dengannya...

Dengan tak semena-mena perasaan segan datang melihatkan senario begitu..
Apa pula pandangan orang-orang bukan Islam terhadap mereka ini..?
Imej yang begitukan yang ingin kita berikan pada orang bukan Islam tentang
agama Islam dan penganutnya?

Apakah ini sememangnya trend yang membanggakan?
Apa agaknya makna Ramadhan dalam hati setiap mereka-mereka yang saya lihat itu?
Bersemangatkah mereka untuk menyambut raya?

Hmm..
Adakah perasaan kemenangan itu sedangkan puasa kita tidak sesempurna mana?
Sedih rasanya bila mengenangkan bulan suci ini dipandang enteng sahaja oleh sesetengah pihak..


Im not exactly the picture-perfect Muslim,
Saya sendiri masih banyak lagi ruang-ruang kosong yang perlu diisi dengan ilmu
supaya dapat menjadi Muslim yang lebih baik..

Tetapi saya bimbang dengan trend yang semakin berleluasa ini
bila terfikirkan,
apakah didalam keadaan masyarakat sebegini yang akan saya besarkan anak-anak saya?
Nampaknya memang beratlah tanggungjawab saya dimasa akan datang
dalam hal mendidik keluarga...

Namun,
Saya bersyukur melihat sesetengah pihak yang dapat memelihara diri
dari terpengaruh dengan anasir-anasir yang kurang sihat ini,
dan tetap menunjukkan imej yang positif di dalam bulan Ramadhan..

Kesedaran tentang peri pentingnya bulan Ramadhan dan erti kemenangan di bulan Syawal
belum cukup kental lagi dikalangan masyarakat kita...
Dan pada pendapat saya,
walau macam mana pun institusi-institusi atau jabatan agama dalam negara membuat inisiatif mempelbagai aktiviti bagi membagkit kesedaran tentang bulan Ramadhan,
ada satu institusi penting yang menjadi akar bagi segala tindak-tanduk setiap manusia
iaitu institusi keluarga....

And not forgetting, pokoknya diri setiap individu itu sendiri samada hendak berubah atau tidak..Nobody can change a man, if he does not want to change himself..

Oh well,
Itu cuma padangan 2 sen saya (just my two cents worth)..:)


Mudah-mudahan Allah Taala memberi mereka dan juga saya petunjuk...


Amiin..

Whats Up Whats Down

Oh Gosh!
Eversince the last time I had an emotional breakdown,
everything's just been going so slow...

Life seemed so mundane..

Have not done any shopping for 'eid..
I just dont have the time...
Why do I have to go to the shops,
why cant the shops come to me instead?
hmmm.....

Reached home 7+ pm after work,
By the time Im too tired to do anything,
I just want to lie down and sleep..

I've got a weekend job now..
Which I pretty much like...
Alhamdulillah...

For the rest of Ramadhan,
I might be busying myself
working from Mon-Sun...

So there,
That's what I've been and will be up to
for this month...


I've been day-dreaming a lot
about going for a holiday....
A road trip maybe.....
Just jalan-jalan, cam-whoring and eat eat eat!
ahakz...

Its nice if it could come true...
But for now,
it shall remain a dream...;)


Im out.

Tata!

Hello..I Present You DiDi..

Presenting our new baby..
















Her name is DiDi...
;)

Well,
She's a total contrast from her sister BiBu...
But She's also a beauty..
She's skinny but she's strong...;)

ahakz...

She's definitely lighter than BiBu,
so at least I can handle her ...:)

Welcome to our family DiDi..!

Never My Forte

Living in Monotony is never my Forte..
Give me back my life.........
Please.....

My Mini Photography Project

Was feeling down for the past few days..:'(
that explains the silence behind my secretdoor..

This morning was the craziest!
I had a sudden emotional breakdown
IN the office...!
Luckily no one was in the office...
phew!
I dont even know why I was so overcome by emotions that I
cried buckets out of the blue.....
huhu....

FH suggested focusing on
things I like...
And that got me thinking of photography...

Its been a while since I last snap with passion..
chey~~
So I went to P*opular B*ookshop and bought a few essentials... :)

So just now I did a mini project..

Managed to find these for the subject matter...
Not my bestest shots,
but not bad for someone who's been hanging her camera
behind the door for so long...;)
hihihi...:)














Tomatoes! I dont like tomatoes...
But the moment I found out its good for the face,
I swallowed them like I love them to bits..hihi..:)

Tried to play around with the lighting to get
different effect and colours...:)















My favourite perfume...Cant live without them..;)
Incidences in life taught me valuable lessons about life...














Two other perfume I got from my mom..
Have not used them yet...

Hey!
All my perfumes are PINK!
I loike!


*sigh*

I just wish this nagging feeling in me
will go away...:(

Just thinking about it
makes fell all teared up...:'(





I want ice-cream..............................
I NEED ice-cream....
*endorphines needed urgently*


Im out!

Who's Who

I am amazed at how
I can keep my composure well and balanced
over some quite hurtful things..


Its funny how people can decide for others
without waiting for a final say...


Thanks a lot..


Pfft...


Or is it,
My own fault, that things had to come to this state?

Maybe....


Nevermind,
Now I know who's who...







In this world, you just cant rely too much on others...

You only have yourself....

My Very Own

My very OWN brand NEW desktop set..!!




















After selling my no-longer functioning N*E*C lappie
to uncle karung guni,
my parents bought me this new sleek looking HP desktop set..

It is a graduation gift from them..:)
Thank you mak!
Thank you bapak!




and.....


I am loving it!


Alhamdulillah!!