e'thing on 2th jan

The b'dae boy was one satisfied guy...:)
after maghrib, dad recited the du'a and fitri cut the cake..

as for me, i bought him the book and lanyard he wanted and treated him to ice cream...
suker giller dia...hehe..






































his prezzies


















eat ice cream like never before...;)

as for the upcoming wedding ceremony,
i feel like im the bride..ahakz...

how come?

yelah, org lain kawen, i lak yg sibuk nk kai inai...
very the mak nenek...;)


















the 'berinai' session...;)

and,
i've been busy with preparing the berkat for the kiddos...



















candies!



















and more candies!

gosh! i feel like charlie and the chocolate factory already...:)

oh yah!
i've got a new baby!

nope not turtles...:p






















this!
an olympus tripod!
coool....:)

sigh
im one happy bunny....:)

yet another b'dae entry

Entry dedicated to my irritating but lovable lil' bro ;)


Muhammad Fitri Bin Agost



















Happy 11th Birthday!

ish, da besar dah adik aku...hihi...

today i go buy the Harry Potter book and lanyard that you wanted k?

happy for him

weeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

This moment, this point of time,
im really happy! :)

Im happy for him...:) :)

congratulations dear....:)



btw,
this blog welcomes only those who know how to appreciate others..
and for those who only know how to criticise and provoke others,
you're welcome to make your way outta here...

Identity changed

weeee~~
i've did a little bit of editing...

added a new song and changed my email add..

be informed yah! :)

p/s: daddy's in the newpaper today...ceh..banggalah bapak ku sorang tu...;)

US..together forever..

nothing much to say...
pretty much in a good mood...

Alhamdulillah....
:)
thanx dear...

together..forever..i'Allah..


















anyway,
i've gotta start on the mms assignment..
also, start reading on hadith and mms for the midterms..
hmm..

my room is going to be the bride and groom's room for the day, this Saturday..
so i had to do a major clean up in my room earlier today..

the most loved part of my room,
my book corner!! :)

















i rearranged all the books...
still there's one more BIG box full of books..
dont know where to put..

how i wish i can have a library of my own....

new year

Ahlan wa sahlan Muharram..

To all Muslims out there..

Happy new year...
Kullu 'am wa antum bi khair..:)





To my pelangi:

Upon reaching beloved homeland,
you were there to welcome me...
and
i really really appreciate it dear..maceh...:)

cant wait to meet you today...:)

ASSIIUM phototaking session

hey all!
i just came from the ASSIIUM phototaking sessions in front of the library..

see,
IIU is having this company from outside (i think)
taking photographs of students of different batches from different kulliyah..

so,
the EXCO called us all Singaporeans to take group photos for memories...

i was a bit hesitant in the beginning...
(dont ask y)
but alas,
i relented and joined them...

well,
after much persuasion by my fwenz..
how could i not, rite? :)

all went well,
i cant wait to have a look at the pix...

:)

meanwhile,
it's back to midterms and craziness (read:assignments)
kikikiki...

p/s: looking forward to 9th feb-Communication dept phototaking session..yippie!

retail therapy

i need retail therapy!~~~~~~~~

Dear...we go later when i come back k?

les miserable

three midterms for this week...
one down two more to go...

Dip comm really scared me..
i felt really confused with what was it that the lecturer wants..:(
whatever it was,
i did the best i could,
i'll just tawakkal 'alallah..

tomorrow is statistic!!
seram kaan...
but i already studied and did my revisions almost everyday...

i dont mind the calculations..
i've even memorized the formulas
im only a bit scared about the spss output..
i just have to go familiarise myself with it tomorrow before the exam...

Oh Allah,
Help me.....

Im feeling down..
i cant read the newspapers anymore...
i cant watch news on tv without feeling miserable each time...

i sympathise those in JB...
the flood has taken away their valuables, their land, their home...
:(

Oh Allah...
only You know what is best for the people...
only You have the power to change things according to your will..
only You listens to our prayers...

p/s: im missing home....ceh, miss home ke........miss.......erk...ehem....:p

uwaaa...
gtg!

The NEED for 'it'

I sense some curious nose sniffing about my current status...;)
ahakz!
i dont mean to keep people in the dark,
i just want or better still NEED, privacy..
i mean, for now..

even if its forever,
i feel it is a need to keep certain things to myself...
it's crucial to ward 'evil' off....

i've been through rough patches,
that almost 'destroy' my self-esteem...

sometimes,
we need to understand why people keep secrets...
put ourself in other people's shoes...

there must be a significant reason for it...
:)

so there people,
simply said:

the time's not ripe, yet.
:)

pardon me...

p/s: isnt it right dear? ;)

Get well soon nana

Just when i thought i was getting better,
the fever hit me again yesterday..
PLUS,
the runny nose which has been bugging me for two weeks now...
:'(

my throat feels like there's an elephant in there..
I ate some meddy yesterday,
and slept from 5+pm til this morning!

i just couldnt wake up..
haizz..

another bummer was the fact that the midterm for Diplomatic comm was cancelled...
uwaa...
i've studied tau...
and with that, i've got THREE midterms next week...
and one assignment to be submitted...

but on a more positive note,
at least i've studied for Dip comm...
:)

I cant wait to move my 'babies' to their new home...
yay-ness! :) :)
i bet they're gonna be happy...

okeh..
gtg continue sleeping...
Im kinda 'stoink' right now..ahakz!

p/s: how to get rid of this runny nose.....i just cant seem to be able to focus on things for long...help! :(

missing him, tests and cardio...erk...me? cardio?

i miss my bloggie...
(ceh! padahal baru brp hari je tk blog)
hehe...

updates!
i've got midterms coming up...
gila lah...
rasa mcm bermimpi je...

i thought the semester just begun yesterday...ahakz!
i've got one midterm tomorrow..
and two other next week..
yikes!

i've started to feel the tense building up..
but,
chill lah nana~~

u can do it...
if Yan can cook,
you can too!

erk..;)

Im missing you dear rainbow..
how i wish i could be there to lend a listening ear...

dont worry,
i'Allah e'thing will be fine...
i have faith in you..

you can do it too! :)

i'll be back this weekend and we can talk about it..k?
:)

miss ya lots!

oh yah!
i've registered for the fitness training (aerobics class) in my mahallah...
the trainer is a qualified nutritionist and fitness expert..

last night was the first class..
oh boy!
i had such fun that i did not want it to end...

and the best thing is,
i do not experience any muscle aches today...
wahh...
:)

and for your info,
in that class,
we'll be taught kickboxing, cardio and latin rhythm moves...

gerek kaaan!

ee...excited nyer...
:) :)

p/s: love you dear...:)

love is in the air..

In the mood for love anyone..?
cewah...mentang lahz blog da kaler pink....;)

niwei,
im getting better from the fever..
i got an MC from the clinic...
so, home i went...
ahakz...
alasan~~~

k, i'll blog later..
gtg do some stuff...

chowz!

ill lah pullak..

Im down with fever..
i dont know whether its cold fever or hot fever...
what i do know is that im feeling ill...
sobs..

been sneezing and wheezing and croaking since morning..

and the funny thing is i dont know how i got ill in the first place...

haaaizz..

i've swallowed 2 actifast...
hopefully, i'll get better soon...(coz im starting to feel like an old lady oredi)
amin..

niwei, thank God i'll be going home tomorrow...

need to do some library research...

p/s: pssst...heard some rumours (ceh, takdeeelah rumours sgt ;p) that daddy's buying me a new (read: second hand) zoom lens...yippie..

love and treasure

i've been a bit lazy to update...
Holiday but still with a lot of sch work...

yet,
i managed to have fun with the people i love and treasure most..:)

cant wait to go back to sch and finish my pending work,
and then back home again by Friday or saturday..
yay!
;)

you peeps wont understand..
i just HAVE to come home..

well,
to unwind...:)
hihihihi...

oh ya!
anyway,
hope its not too late to wish all of you a happy and marry 'eid adha..

a mad guy and a 'friendly' mosquito visit

weekend is drawing nearer and nearer..
i simply cant wait anymore...
nak baliiik!!

lotsa things up my sleeves....
*cheeky smile*

guess what,

just a few days ago,
the fan in my room went all wrong...
i dont know, maybe its the fuse or whatever...

BUT!
the important thing here is the fact that i had to endure 6 DAYS of sleepLESS nights...
all thanks to the 'visitors' coming to my room without me inviting them...

who?
its Mr & Mrs mosquito and their family and friends!
(how nice of them to come and visit me....next time bring some gifts along eh...blek!)
hmph!

well,
thanks to them,
i now have very nice bumpy and red spots on both my arms and legs....:(

PLUS,
the heat and sweats i had to bear with every night.....

thankfully,
after i reported 3 TIMES,
the technician finally came and fixed the fan...
btw,
i've got a brand new fan...

ever since that incident,
i have learnt how significant the fan is to me,
and to appreciate it...

so,
i've decided to switch the fan to the maximum speed 24/7..
kahkahkahkah....!

*evil laughs*

ok ok...
nolah....
;p

i mean, i'll save electricity....;)

and then,
there's another story,

a mad indonesian guy (i dont know probably a contractor or foreign worker, i just guess from his voice),
has been bugging me...
he sms-ed, miss-called and called...

well,
it so happen the other day,
me, shasha and farah was at pudu buying our tix for eid...
and we had to call Za...

shasha's phone went beserk,
so i had to call Za..

i didnt know she's changed her number (or maybe she told me but i forgot)

when i called, a male indonesian (very the wak-wak-like) voice answered..
i thought it was Za's bf and asked for Za..

but this guy didnt quite get what i mean..
i suspected a wrong number....
so i said sorry and put the phone down...

now,
u might think it's all settled..

teeeet!!!

WRONG GUESS!

after a few minutes,
he called me!

using an anonymous number and asked for my name, who am i and some other crap...

so i said,
"huh? wrong number lah!"
and put down the phone straight away...

after another minute,
he sms-ed me laaah!
eeeeee......

"hi..leh kenal2...."

huh?
mrepek kaaan! siow ting tong!

i didnt reply of coz...
waste credit jer...

kalau taufik batisah ke hady mirza ke yg nak kenal2,
takperlah jgk!

haha...k k... drag...:p

then,
i asked someone to answer this guy's phone call...
he was startled and didnt call again...

settled?

teeeet!!

WRONG AGAIN!

he sms-ed me just a few hours ago lah.....!!??!!

i've decided to change my number..

i am sooooooooooo sure a psycho like this guy here,
wont stop playing around....

tis reminds me of kak.eka's experience....

Giller punyer mamat!

fwah!
im really frustrated eh?
hihi...

k,
im out.

p/s: missing you terribly..............................................

Loooong weekend

My first weekend stay here in IIU
since sch re-opened..

yup.

this weekend,
i'll be in IIU..

someone wont be in Singapore anyway, :(
i guess,
i'd better stay here in campus starting up on my assignments and research..

Gosh!
this is making me feel sick..
sudden nauseousness, headache, stomachache plus whatever ache lah...
:(

ish..
its only a week + another week, which totals to 2 WEEKS,
of not seeing each other,
and im already developing these aches...hihi..

tapi,
takpa takpa....
Im strong..

uwaa...!

help!

k k drag...

ok,
khasanah,
u have discussions over the weekend hokay?

So,
stay F.O.C.U.S

but its no that bad,
you'll be calling me right?
:)

and oh yah!
the other week will be another loooong weekend!
yippie!

Its eid...! :)

cant wait..!
;)

gtg.
nature's call..yikes!

p/s: wonder how's my 'anak2' doing....better call home later...i miss them too!

May Allah unite us

Its a magical feeling..
Its a beautiful feeling..

Never felt this way before..
Im on cloud nine..

I kept looking at our pictures..
i couldnt bear turn around and do other things,
for even a minute...
i dont want to blink my eyes...
i just want to keep looking at that face..

That sweet thought of yours,
i understand perfectly...
its what we both wanted...
together we work towards it,
with prayers to Allah...
May He protect us from evil and unite us, Insya Allah...:)

Dont worry as i will always pray for you...
we'll stick together in Happiness and in sorrow...
:)

miss you lots..:)

p/s: two classes cancelled for today...im going to sleeeeep! yay!

missing you dear

Its not that i like to complain all the time..
but,
there's always things that causes the heart to 'bleed' or almost bleeding lah..;)

Ok,
so, early this morning, we're all supposed to alight IN campus, (like we usually did)
BUT,
this 'kind' pakcik drebar stopped at Pudu,
and told us that the bus couldnt go on..(coz the airbox or whatever crap is spoilt)
YES,
he said just that...

what made me think twice was the fact that the night before, at Larkin, pkck Amir already told the driver abt us to be sent to UIA...
plus, the Driver get paid EXTRA for sending us to UIA, hokay?
However, before he actually said that the bus couldnt go on, he asked us, why arent we alighting there at Puduraya....(it was 5 am ++ in the morning)
only when we told him, he's supposed to send us to IIU, he said the bus could go...
WHAT THE!

i just dont believe him....:(

Upon alighting at Puduraya, so early in the morning,
we had to walk beramai2 'berjuang' to look for taxi..
(most of us are girls..)

this particular taxi i took
had the meter ON...
and it stated RM15.80 when we reach campus...
BUT,
the driver ask us to pay RM24..
that is 'dawn robbery'!!!

giller kape!

ish!
why are these people so uncivilised!


ok..
forget abt that...

and so, i couldnt sleep at all as i had class at 8am
:(

But today's a fine day..
despite the minor gastric attack,
classes was all fun..
i've got topic for my EAP, cant wait to start on it...:)

Im missing someone badly...
:(

Hi there!
im missing you..
cant wait for the time when we can meet again...
:)

i guess that's all..
laundry's done!

tata!

p/s: Only Allah understands this feeling im having.....:)

great to be loved

After the rough patch i went through the past few days,
im finally home,
and i've met 'my remedy'...:)
Thanx..! :)

Life's becoming more meaningful now with you around..
I pray to Allah and am grateful to Him for this beautiful soul..

im not gonna care abt what others will say anymore...
I decide my own journey in life...
Whatever that i have to go through is mine and MINE alone..
others wont understand...
they will only demoralise and demotivate me...

Thank you my dear,
for being there for me..
Thank you for giving me 'life'
after what i thought would be my 'death'..
ahakz..ape ke bendernye lah...
;)

k k...
Im out...
cant wait to see ya tomorrow....:)

P/s: i've found the 'real' pelangi...Now i know how it feels to be loved....:)
Alhamdulillah...

love mum!

Im waiting for the time to go home..

i used to think this semester i'll be going home often...
but,
starting last night,
i think, i'll be going home almost every weekend...
its better, i guess...
Im kinda offended by the way things are now...
:(

well, nevermind..
i'm going home later...
:) :)

Mak!
eppi advance b'dae..
cant to be home..!
Mmuah!
love ya!

mohon maaf

:'(

Astaghfirullahal 'azim..

I seek Allah's forgiveness for letting the Satan take over my emotions...

:'(

Tuhan saja yang tahu betapa sedih dan pedihnya hati,
bila diri ini dirasakan seolah talam dua muka...

sesungguhnya,
diri ini tidak pernah ingin menyakiti hati sesiapa...:'(

kalau sekiranya,
awak tetap merasa saya bersalah,
saya dengan rendah dirinya memohon maaf....:'(

Mudah-mudahan kita jauh dari sebarang permusuhan....
:(

difitnah?

CAUTION!

i am venging my anger and dissatisfaction in this entry..

I dont understand why people would label others as bad
when they dont even know the 'real' thing...

To you and you,

I couldnt care any less...!
i cant be bothered!
i dont even want to know or even hear abt you(s)!

so dont drag me in this shit!

this, has cost me my good name...

labeling me as BAD when you dont even know what is it that actually happened?
how low is that?

Hey!
i am not that DESPERATE hokay!
:'(

im sooo pissed off with these kind of people!
they are either idiots or senile or simply said : STUPID!

and if there are those,
who only hear from others and straight away label and judge people,
all i can tell you is,
otak letak kat lutut pe!

When things happen,
people tend to forget what the victims are facing, how they are feeling..
people are always tricked into believing the WRONG victim...

:(
:(

Fitnah itu lebih buruk dari membunuh!

:'(

P/S : abang, ayang difitnah.......!!!! :'(

missing you

i was greeted by the PMS monster
the day i reached IIU..
the night was spent sobbing and crying..

nevertheless,
i guess this semester will be a fine one for me..(hopefully)
except with the mounting workload i'll have to bear with..

I've started the library regime...hihi..
currently,
heavy with 6 books,
plus some other photocopied readings...
giler lah!
ni baru first week..

khasanah,
u MUST score GOOD..
try to get the dean's list..(seramnyeeee)

anyway,
this semester i tried to avoid meeting certain people,
but i ended up bumping into them again and again...
why??
get a life!
i mean i'll meet you when i feel like it...
hmph!

p/s: i miss YOU...:'( i cant wait to go home...:'(

Slurrrpilicious and bloatedness

Had a grreeat time today..went to JB wif the family...
what initially supposed to be a trip to 'nyonya baju' (my family's favourite tailor)
to measure ME, for my NEW kebaya,
ended up with us going home BLOATED...ahakz..

thats what the kebaya will somehow look like when its ready..
with a bit of changes here and there (according to my taste)..
cant wait to wear it...hihihi...

















the material next to it is the material my mom's friend bought for me from INDIA! :)
i loike!


the next destination was my fav..!
the family decided to have dinner..
i told daddy i wanted bbq stingray...
and then, i suggested steamboat...

me and my big mouth, plus my dad's generosity,
YES!
we did ended up at this place called 'gazebo place' (near XTRA supermarket)

















the place looked nice..
the ambience was fine..
the service, a thumbs up..

i ordered what else, 'ikan pari bakar' hihihi...

















then we ordered steamboat,

















mind you, steamboat came with all the other xtras like the veges, fishballs, prawns, octopus, eggs yada yada yada....
there's even noodles..!

the kangkong belacan was sooo enticing i think i can dream about it tonite...!
:)

this here, is the bandung soda...






















ya Allah!
tak taulah nak xplain....haaaaiz...
nak lagi! ;)

see this lil bro of mine..
Slurrrrpilicious!
ahakz..!

















Puas hati lah! ;)

















erk...i just cant help but to take pix of the tablecloth...(k, tau tak penting...:p)
mcm lawa ah....hihihi...;)

















mom and dad,
satisfied~~~

















the aftermath?

the bill

















we ended up feeling bloated like we've never felt before...
ahahaha...
giller lah! i think that was one heck of an experience eating like a pig
(read: superwoman)...
ish!
must diet lah after this...;p

















there's nothing like good food and great company
to satisfy the hungry singaporeans' stomachs...:)

wakaka..

p/s : dah mlm, cant see the pelangi...:(

i dont it to go away

i dont understand..
i had a superb time today..

BUT,
out of the blue,
i felt sad...
:(

i think im gonna cry...:'(

why does time has to fly really quickly when we're having the time of our life?
its not like i always had these kind of chances...
:(
:(

p/s: rainbow pleeeeaaassee dont go away~~~:(

Final year..on more year to go..

Alhamdulillah...
i thought i couldnt make it..
but i did..
with the help of Allah the Almighty...

i passed my exams..
an increase in my gpa and cgpa..
Alhamdulillah...:)

and im officially a FOURTH year student...
yay!
oh! better say,
FINAL year student..
ahakz! ;)

ooooooh...~~
it feels gooood to say that..~~~;)

and i did my add drop,
and guess what?

for the first time,
i'll be taking eight subjects (including skills)..
its 21.5 credit hrs..

i cant believe it myself...
May Allah guide me to the right path,
Amiin...

p/s: with rainbows, everything ahead seems bright and wonderful..:)

blah!

Tension!
what's with the IT division in IIU...
i've been trying to load the result page since just now..
aaargh!

im giving UP!

blah!

what will the results be?

im terrified!
results will be out by FOUR pm today...
uwaaa...
scary lah..
cannot tahan...

will the result be worth all my diligence?
or
will it be such a dissapointment?



















the previous semester was a terrible roller coaster ride for me..
many things (mostly unexpected) happened..
they come and go and leave me in distress..

Gosh,
i wont hope for much..
a pass would be fine..
pleaassee....

wedding weekend

how's my weekend?
spent at my aunt's wedding..

what did i do there?
sit around with nyais and yais,
and aunts and uncles..

listened to them talking abt marriage,
life, and yada yada yada...

its kinda boring though..
but at times they're quite funny..
boleh tahan lawak gak datok2 nenek2 sdare aku nih..
hihihi...

apart from that,
wedding ceremonies like this are the only time
i would get to meet all my relatives..
i really mean ALL...
ahakz..
dah besar2 drg semer...

let the pix do the talking..
im terribly tired...

the cam whores..ahakz




















cik Dada..


























the Nikah...




















the arrival of the Groom..





















my family with the bride and groom..




















me and cik yati...gals in green...




















the cake cutting ceremony...




















selamat pengantin Baru Rashidah bte wosaini (cik Dada) & Muhd Farhan..

i passed through it..yes!!

Last night,
As i was lying around waiting to sleep,
i realised that it was 'the' date..

November, Twenty-Fourth.

The date which i thought i couldnt bear go through..
i thought i was going to die, if i had to go through it..
i thought i was going to spent the day cooped up in my room..
i thought i was going to shed unstoppable tears the whole day..


BUT,

i DIDNT!

:)

i've got my babies,
and im very very happy...
i've got some meaningful calls and smses,
and im overwhelmingly happy..

i did get through 'the date'
:)

im happy for my self...
:)

speaking of my babies,
i've got names for them..














the ones with the most stripes on its shell is 'Torty'
and the other is 'Canny'

ok ok,
why?
u ask...

Both names were inspired by the all-time favourite hunky, macho Italian soccer players..
as in,
torty = totti
canny = cannavaro (miss him..! ahakz! ;) )

ahakz!
i loike!! ;)

p/s: existence of rainbows made me forget 'the date' :)

i've got babies

whoa!
im now a proud mother of two...;)

Im sooo happy..
i've been wanting to care for these babies for such a looong time..
and i finally got it...

well, you curious peeps out there,
these are the babies...



tadaa!




























yes its two turtles!
ahaha..

sorry lah for the anti climax..;p

anyways,
arent they adorable??















i haven't name them yet..still looking for cute n unique names..
they're both males..

any suggestions anyone..?
;)

love my country

No wonder i love my country.. :)
there's a lot of beautiful places with picturesque views
waiting to be torn out of its virginity..
ahakz..

really,
take a look at these...



































































those are
only in pix..
but the bestest view is ONLY through the eyes..
Subhanallah...
:)

well,
the visit to nyai's house was great..
plus the prawn sambal was superb!!
pedas giller beb!
saaaayang nyai...

till then,



















bubbye.. :)

all the fun things and results, yikes!

A few of my friends said this is the most boring holidays ever..
I personally didnt think so...
First cause i have so many things up my sleeves to be done..
Especially with me being the 'maid' thingy...hihi..
And plus, i had quite a few wonderful outings...:) :)
i'll be going to my Granny's house today...
just for a visit..

school holidays is drawing nearer and nearer to the end..
WHY??!!

All good things have to end...
and it always ends soooo fast, isnt it so?
and sometimes without us even realising it, u agree with me?

Thus,
when school holiday's ending,
means, results will be out soon..
when result's will be out soon,
I will be scared to my wits!

argh! help!

haiyyah..this sem 1 ah..very scary you know....:(

Better try harder to get at least an A, so i can get a treat...hahahaha...;)

p/s: Pelangi di petang hari.....

serene and calm

feeling a bit jet-lagged todae...:(

anyway,
i went to an uncle's wedding ceremony yesterday..
i was pretty excited..
its been a loooong time since i last saw all these uncles and aunties of mine...

yesterday was the first..
next week is another aunt's wedding,
and the week after is another...

geez..
three weddings in one go...

and i have an engagement invite from Dila at Skudai...
how am i supposed to go there huh?
hmm....
how i wish i could drive...(all bcoz of that nasty old driving instructor lah..grrr..)

nvrmind that,
look at this pix..














serene isnt it?? :)
i just love this place..and its in Spore u noe...! :)

hmm...
before i end,
just a little note for a friend...

friend,
i love you and i care for you..
i would want to do nothing to hurt you..
please have faith in me,
and we'll be friends til the end of life..
insya Allah...
****************************************

p/s: rindu pelangi yang berwarna warni..... ;)

singapore maid-lah

Howdy people!


Life's been great here back home in Singapore..
i've begun my daily routine of being a part time maid ;)
been running up and down the house with brooms and mops...
tango-ing in the kitchen with pots and pans..
ahakz..drag!

:)

i wanna load a pix of one of my fav spot (just added it to my lists of fav hang out)
but mr. blogger here got probs with it..
so later lah k..?

p/s: Semakin hari semakin indah warna pelangi..

embrace the bed

Alas,
im home!

sleeepyyyy...
huargh!

i see my bed and my pillows waving at me...
calling me to embrace the softness and warmness of the bed...

uwaa...
gtg...

i'll blog later yah...;)

Feeling Rainbowyyyy

I love the rain...
I LOVE the rainbow even more...;)

Rain rain go away...
Ms. khasanah wants to play..
Rain rain go away...
Let the rainbow come and......urmm...brighten up my day...!
hehehehe...

:)

cepatlah abes exam...
dont feel like reading anymore...
wanna rest and play aaaaall day looong~~

Happiness pays

Im such a happy bunny...
i guess it really pays to be happy...
No stresses, No Headache, No PMS (the bestest :)) and u really feel light, healthy and happy inside out...;)

serious...
im not kidding..
:)

This gotta be the happiest month for me this year..
Its great to feel free and loved by so many people..
i even forgot how xams actually scare me...ahakz...
:)

Alhamdulillah...

im waiting for my last paper...
it on the 14th,
and if i can settle the proposal by tuesday, i would go back right after my xam..
if not,
i'd have to wait till 15th to go home...

geez..i dont even mind...:)

haaaiz...
Im high on cloud nine...ahaha...

P/s: happiness brought by rainbows ;)

xam's coming to an end...

5 down 1 more to go...
anticipation is very high..
cant wait to go home..
miss my bed and my fluffy pillows..:(

I have 6 days gap before the next paper (usul fiqh)
gosh! i've so much time under my sleeves..
i've a date with specky on the 11th..
hihihi...feeling very cheeky...
cant wait to sing my heart out..;)

"ais, cepatlah abes xam anti..ana xcited giller nih.."

Life's getting on fine..
Im very happy and contented..
Never had a day gone by without an overwhelming sense of gratitude to Him, the most Loving and Most Merciful..

:) :)

im out..
nak g ronggeng..
ahaha...

p/s: miss my babe..suhaila......

Lost

aaargh!
dear friends..
for your info, i've lost the phone numbers in my HP..
so it might do us good if you guys could msg me ur number again..

To my dearest Suhaila..
if ur reading this,
i miss u..
i need to talk to u..
msg me k..
need ur number..

k chow!

My current status

Tuhan turunkan matahari buat ku...
Namun aku masih menangis mencari kemanakah perginya matahari yang ku sanjungi itu...
Rupa-rupanya Tuhan amat menyayangiku..
Dia datangkan Pelangi buat ku..
Pelangi yang sangat menyenangkan hati...

Sesungguhnya Tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik buatku..
Matahari yang dahulu disanjung tinggi itu,
telah membakar hati dan perasaan ku...

Hujan diturunkan
ibarat penyembuh
kepada luka kebarakan itu...
Sebelum akhirnya
Dia menghadiahkan pelangi
bagiku...

adakah aku masih mahu menangisi pemergian matahari?
Tidak!
Tidak lagi!
Tidak akan sama sekali!

Aku mahu terus
menghargai pemberian Tuhan yang Satu itu..

Aku mahu terus bersyukur
dengan anugerahNya itu..

Aku ingin bergembira
dengan cahaya kegembiraan yang baru itu...

Alhamdulillah....

Me? strong and happy?

I can now truly understand what it feels like to be alone..
its not like being all by yourself somewhere with no one to keep you company..
this is a different loneliness..

despite the fact that you are surrounded by many wonderful friends and families that loved you dearly,
somehow,
you still feel alone..
you feel lost somewhere and not knowing how to come back makes it even more scarier...

having had someone or something for so many years,
holding on to it like you'll never gonna see it again if you lost it,
pinned hopes for happiness,
can just disappear within mere minutes or even seconds..
dreams were shattered,
hopes destroyed...

or maybe,
there's still hope..
only Allah knows...

For God is truly Loving...
He made me go through this test to make me realize that maybe im worth for something better..
He wants to protect me and make me a true and good Muslimah...

I know its not going to be an easy road for me to walk on..
I know i shall shed unstoppable tears for sometime...
But time heals...
I know somewhere within me, i am a strong girl..
God wills...

hmm..

i aint gonna take it anymore

Its Over..
Its finally over..

i dont know what to say...
i feel like im in a dream...
still in daze..

im terrified..
im scared..
im hurt..

:'(

Its totally over....:'(

people say i look like...

Barney and friends

Rayer pix time..!
well this year's theme is purple..
here's some of 'em..malas lah nak upload byk2...
hehe..
k, follow the arrow...














^My bro and family



















^Dini, contented wif da big ball..hihi..














^another cute nephew of mine, mohd Hazeem



















^cewah...playing Fur Elise with Zaki's piano..nmpk gaya pro tak?



















^anak dara saper tu....kikikiki..














^Dad and Nyai..



















^Me and Fitri..














^Family and atok..(Incomplete)

aha...very the puple, very the Barney and friends..
there's more..but next time lah ek..if im free..
:)

chows!

peace lah kawan..

Eid Mubarak to all Muslims all over the world..
To err is human,
Therefore,
I seek your forgiveness if in any way i've hurt you through my words and action..

Ramadhan has left us..
I'm sad though, for not taking full advantage of this blissful month..
May i live to see the next Ramadhan..Amin..

My last note before busying myself with raya and text books..
why are u not replying my msg?
am i at fault not agreeing with those people?
Im sorry..
i just cant accept...

anyway, it eid's eve,
I apologise for all my misdeeds to u..
peace baby...

chow!

eid and xam do NOT go together

Its two more days to 'eid..
Im soo not anticipating it..
y, u ask?
im scared of xam..
uwaa..
kacau lah..
i dont even feel like stepping out of my house..

i think this'll get better only after the final's over..
which,
i definitely cant wait..
sobs..

anyway,
since i was tired of reading my texts,
i cleaned the whole house..
all by myself..
now cantik oredi! :)
im a happy bunny..
with abit of help from fitri and bibik lah..(kes tak kuat nak angkat2 kerusi meja)
plus, i cooked for iftar!
i cooked spicy spaghetti Bolognese..fusion of Malay and Italy herbs and spices..
(ehem..mentang2 nak jadik Mrs KHAnnavaro ;))
cant wait to eat...its two minutes more to Azan..
yay!

i leave u with the new sandal my bro bought for Dini..comel giller..

pretty interesting life

Im home...
kinda jet lagged.
funny coz i think the bus yesterday is so comfy..
i slept like a baby...
i didnt even realised when we were at Yong Peng and slept through till we reached the Custom..

mom and dad is out running errands..
maman is at camp..
aim is working..
abg is at JB..
fitri is playing..
bibik is sitting in the kitchen..
him i dont know..

me?
studying for Finals..

how exciting is that?!
bleargh....

cant wait for maghrib..
wonder what's for buka today...

hoping for something interesting to happen..
maybe tomorrow i will go to Tangs with TF to buy shoes!
mintak2 jadilah..

gtg continue study..

khalas...kullu khalas..

FINALLY!!
all assignments and memorizations and tests - Khalas! finish!

Tuhan saja yg tahu...
what im feeling right now..
the verdict for this semester, now at this point of time : i really really have to buck up for the finals...
im not satisfied with my carry marks...
its crazy...
i really thought this semester was going to be the one that im going to score...
but thats not gonna happen unless i put my heart and soul into the coming final examination...
so, no hari raya for me...

takotnyer!!
the exam fever is coming...
i can feel it...urgh!

gtg..

p/s: going back to spore tonite...and why is it im not that excited...? hmm..

these peeps will be 'gone'

Im saddened by the fact that next semester,
my brother's no longer around,
three of my buddies will be graduating too...
and latest news,
a close friend of mine is going to be a very busy person in her society...

Im happy for her,
but somehow sad...
i've always had her to talk to when im down and when neither my bro nor my buddies are there for me...
and the thought that all these important peeps will be 'gone' is making me go mad...

who am i going to talk to,
who am i going to confide into,
who am i going to go to for a shoulder to cry on,
who am i going to laugh with,
who?

i dont know...

i mean, yes i do have lots of other friends..
but the few that i mentioned has been there throughout my tough and rocky journey here in IIU...

sigh...
it wont be the same without them here next semester...

and to my dear friend (the one who'll be an important person in her society),
Im proud of you...
I know you can shoulder the challenges and responsibilities yet to come..
May you achieve success throughout your reign as the president...cewah!...:)

the day i felt like burying myself underneath the ground

just as i expected,
Things turned out a total disaster..
the pre-presentation was a chaos..

the guy in my group seriously made me hate him..
sorry to say, but he did not make enough effort to show he's worth the 40 marks..
i've decided to tell Dr. Saodah on Monday about what happened..
and how this guy was not of any help at all..

wait a minute!
he did do something instead of nothing,
yep, he irritates me to the max...
he makes me detest group work all the more..
that's what he contributed..

The presentation was an embarrasment..
I wish to withdraw the course than flunk...
:(
**************************************
This semester,
i learned something valuable..
i learned that matters of the heart is fragile...
how you could love and hate somebody within seconds..
how you could love someone you thought you wouldnt love at all..
how you feel when someone told you they love you..
how you feel when someone told you they've been thinking of you...
these,
despite knowing that it is impossible to happen...

I learn to react to things calmly,
you know, without having to blow my top everytime people irritate me..
I learn to think time and again for the consequences of each of my every movements..
I learn that it is ok to widen my horizon..
I learn to accept what is fated for me..

Gee....
luckily i have this secretdoor...
if not,
i might suffer from problems clotted in my heart and brain,
having to keep things to myself...
**************************************

Its a few more days to Eid..
I wonder what its gonna be like this year...
i dont really look forward to eid that much this year...
arent i funny...
maybe it because of the exam thingy..
takots beb!

argh! im out..

presentation and the hell effect of it

Shoots!!
i've never in my entire life become scared as i am now, for a PRESENTATION...
(comm theory - with the nonsense group i blogged abt recently)

aaaargh!
help!
i dont want to go ahead with the presentation and die of shame..
i'd rather die jumping from KLCC's height..
This whole assignment is like living hell for me...

ok ok obviously i'm exaggerating..
BUT thats what im feeling right now..

ok, i'd better stop now,
before i really, literally go jump off a building....yikes!

erk, is it possible if skip the clock at 11.30 am??

ok, im out!

home to lontong goreng

Its been quite sometime since i've not been home...
I've not had iftar with my family...
I did not even want to go back home until 22nd of this month...
this decision of mine caused worry to some peeps...

My brother, esp,
has been bugging me to go home...

It wasnt only until yesterday i decided to relent..
i'd actually decided to go home since early this week..
but thanx to my dad's remarks,
i cancelled..(merajuk lah konon)
i sooo did not want to go home at all...

it spoilt my mood for the WHOLE week..
thanx alot dad...

after much pacifying by my bro,
i relented again...
plus,
my mom said ok when i asked her to cook lontong goreng for me...
so,
yep, cant wait to dig into the lontong goreng...

This week is assignments and presentations week...
despite having tons to be settled - still at hand,
i was dumbfounded when my lecturer gave us another presentation....
what??
another presentation, now?
when its almost the end of the semester?
erk, hello...we still have tons to finish tau!

haiyyah...
u guys still remember the research grp i blogged abt recently,
they irritate me soo that i couldnt even looked at them in the eye..
esp with the bro..

i've had my qualms about working with male counterparts,
had a few bad experiences,
but i always try to think positive,
and when they started to work nonsensically,
the bad impressions i had earlier prevails! -meaning, no more sorry sorry okey....

i guessed they realised that im already angry,
so just now they really took charge of the research paper...

hmph!
tau takpe...
im a nice person,
but dont ever mess with my patience...
once i get angry,
erk, yikes!